My awesome Grandma

Has to be the sweetest lady around!  I came home from a day of doing nothing to hear her sweet message..."Amaya, this is Rebecca, your grandmother, as if I couldn't distinguish her  voice from my sister Rebecca's) , Sweetheart, I made your favorite peanut butter pie today with a homemade meringue and I don't want the crust sitting long  so whenn you get home from work come by and pick it up and have some coffee with us." That definetly made my day.  My grandmother is too damn sweet.  We both share a really bad sweet tooth.  I remember growing up as a child and helping her bake in her kitchen, thats when it was fun, licking the spoons and eating homemade frosting with your fingers!  Needless to say, I'm going over tonight after I unwind and I'm in my pajamas where I'm super comfy eating peanut butter pie with Grandma.  To hell with the carbs, the fat, the  sugar intake...pffffffftttt thats all out the door tonight!  I think I'm even going to skip my workout, even! 
 
I woke up bright & early feeling a bit guilty about lying  to someone whom I've developed feelings for.  I hate that I did that, but I didn't feel like I could answer his question with the truth.  As sad as that is...
 
My day went rather well.  Mike called & woke me up, he says that he's lonely living in the hotel...He's moving into an apartment in Georgetown on Saturday.  He said that Melanie is leaving for Australia on Sunday, by telling me that alone I know that he's had contact with her.  Everything is a lie with him.  Thats so messed up though. The entire situation.  I guess I should wave my white flag. 
 
I spoke to "T" lastnight.  He's so increadiably human, it's so easy to just talk to this man. He said something that moved me, I had a moment!!!  He said that he was searching for homes and he actually wanted Nicole's opinion on the home before he went into contract....he said that he just wants her to be apart of it.  How sweet is that?!!!  I like how he's becoming passionate about getting back with her after he basically called it quits, and now she's saying they need time away from each other.  I'm sure if it's meant to be, it will be.  And this morning, like the idiot I can be sometimes, I call this number that I didn't reconize until I heard "T"'s voicemail.  I felt like such an idiot! He called back & I explained to him what had happened, he laughed it off, THANK GOD!!! I was mortified. 
 
I also talked to Scottie-to-Hottie lastnight as well.  He was a bit drunk but so damn sweet at the same time.  He told me that he wanted to be with me!! Isn't that what I've been wanting?  I think so :)  Ask me tommorrow, that could all change overnight!!!  Just kidding.  We talked until I got sleepy.  He will be home on Thursday.  I can't wait.  He travels so much with work it makes me sick!  Thats his job though.  I can't complain.  I travel a lot as well. 
 

And news of the day---I called Broke Ass today.  I can't believe I did it.  I just picked up my cell and dialed his stupid work number from memory and he answered.  The odd thing is, he didn't know who I was!!!  (WHAT WAS I THINKING) We talked briefly about him and then I said "I Miss ya"!!!  Then I got this huge punch right in the arm from Haven!  She couldn't believe I was telling him that.  I had to tell him that.  I did miss him.  I have no excuse.  I wasn't drunk. I have nothing to blame it on.  I'm ashamed of myself.  Haven said that she's never seen me so weak before.  Scary.  I do miss the fucker.  He was awesome. It was the freaking Avril song...My Happy Ending.  MOVING ON. 

 

 

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did?

Was it something You said?

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high

On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do
It's nice to know you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done
We were meant to be,

 supposed to be,

but we lost it

And all the memories,

so close to me, just fade away

All this time you were pretending

So much for my happy ending!

 

I love that freaking song....And yep, reminds me of broke ass.  

 

So right now I'm going to get a shower, go to grandma's eat my favorite peanut butter pie with tons of confectioner's sugar and just relax :) 

 

Oh and my thought for the day:  Don't allowa newly single, sexy, hot man talk you into getting freaky with Vegetables!!!! And never ever let anyone tell you that "Your pretty face doesn't match that nasty attitude"--The nerve of a man with fleas living in his box and his maggot infested body smelling like total shit.  And I do have the right to turn around and hold my nose and tell you I don't talk to stinky people.  Nasty attitude for Nasty men! Write that down ;) 

 

 

Has anyone heard Maroon 5's awesome new song?  She Will Be Loved???  It's awesome.  Video is great too.   Check it out.