Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Please Pray for Emily

My lil duckling Emily has been really ill lately. After 3 visits to 2 different hospitals she was diagnosed with "Proteininuria". This affects a childs kidneys. She will be undergoing a lot of tests in the next couple of weeks to see how the predisone is helping. I ask that all of you keep her in your prayers. She needs them!

Friday, March 27, 2009

Its been a tough week!

I spent the early morning hours at the ER with Emily. She is on antibiotics and will be fine now. Not to worry, yall! I slept until 10 am. I went to my MRI because I screwed up my back last weekend, which was a walk in the park. And by park, I mean Rock Creek Park, Alone, Rainy, and Scary. Picking up on the sarcasm?

After that fun experience I ended up at Walmart. Walmart is where I go and find anything and it makes me feel better. My basket was filled Fiji water, some fruit, three packs of strawberry bubblicious bubblegum, Apple Cinnamon rice cakes, Baking ingrediants, and enough magazines to paper mache a house- inside and out, when I heard three girls having the kind of discussion that my brain was born to listen in on. They were deeply involved in the kind of girl talk you can only have when you are nineteen and have just discovered how FABULOUS you are. A lot of “very’s” and “like’s” and “totally omigod”. There was a also a lot of:” I’m so excited for tonight!”

”Do you think he will be there tonight?”

“She’s such a ho.”

“Duh! Buy the biggest bag of Cheetos!”

“You are going to look so hot in that shirt!”

And my personal favorite:

“Do you think 7 two liters is enough mix for all three of us?”

I put down a box of special k and smiled to myself. Because no amount of partying, no amount of first kiss butterflies, no squeals with friends while curling my hair would ever make me want to go back there. To the age of ignorance where I didn’t know drinking enough to float an ocean liner would result in me holding on to the bathroom floor with curled fingers, praying that death would take me out of my misery. Or at least cause the room to stop spinning like carousal on fast forward.

I left the store without buying mix or Cheetos. And I couldn’t have been happier.

I came home and made chicken chili, vegged out on the couch with my sick little ducklings. Its been a good day.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

My Heaven

Thinking of Lent got me pondering What is your Heaven going to be like? In heaven there will be cheesecake, flip flops, flowers and duvets. You won’t need to give explanations, or apologies or change for a dollar. There will be no alarm clocks or tube socks or allergies or diabetes. Friendships and milk will never sour with age. You will never lose the reciept, your sanity, or a bet with your brother. Stamps will be free and we will all be our ideal weight. You won’t have the same argument, with the same person, in the same way for years on end. In fact- you won’t argue at all.

Oh, and Peanut M&M's? They will fall from the sky like raindrops. Raining candy has always been with me...even before my strange facination with Uncle Jesse from full house!

Do You Lent?!

I’m religious. I do believe in God. And I believe that believing in something makes me feel better. I'm not Catholic, I'm non denomenational.

But that’s not the point of this ramble. This is about Lent.

I have a friend who practices Lent and I’ve always been intrigued by the idea of ‘giving something up’. Willpower has never been one of my strong suits, but that’s because I hate the idea of giving something up forever. Forty days of sacrifice? That’s something I can do.

It’s been explained to me that deciding what you give up should be based on what you like. Since it’s about sacrifice, it should involve giving up something you enjoy. (This point was made clear when I heroically declared I would give up folding my own laundry for the next month and a half). Apparently, a lot of people give up a favorite food. I dismissed this quickly. When you’ve already had to give up your favorite foods (and most food in general), and find that you actually dread having to decide what to cook because there are so many options (think celiac’s disease and not a zealous food watcher)… the idea of giving up more food just doesn’t seem right. Maybe that’s selfish but until you’ve ate a frozen dinner for dinner because nothing else in your pantry or fridge is safe… do not judge.



I asked a few friends:

Haven: "Sex because it makes me fat".
Michelle: "Drinking during the week"
Becca: "Visa"
Dad: "Sweets and Meats"
Dr. Drew: "My 07 Mercedes" (it was replaced by an 09)
Missy: "my realtor"

I was explaining the idea of Lent to a friend who got me to re-summarize what criteria people used in deciding what they gave up.

Something they enjoy.

Something (in a lot of cases) that isn’t healthy.

Something that they eat or use or experience often.

Then it hit me. I know what to give up.

I just have to figure out a way to tell him.

JK!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

CFV

Remember those walls I built
well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound


I found a way to let you in
I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your Halo
I got my angel now


It's like I have been awakened
every rule I had you breaking
Its the risk that I'm taking
I aint never going to shut you out

You know you're my saving grace!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Tears keep falling

Today has been all wrong. Just horrible. I was supposed to spend the evening in McLean at my friend Ana's house. That didn't happen. I couldn't pack, I couldn't do anything. So after nearly 2 hours of crying, I spent the day with Kennedy and Emily. They know just how to cheer me up. They insisted on calling him half a million times. They love him. As much as I do. What did I do?

On Second Thought

I'm reconsidering my spring break. My heart is broken into a million different pieces.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Strap on your heels!

It's going to be a long weekend leading into the week! I maimed my liver for the second night this week. First, I apologize to all of the drunk dials this morning. "DCFinance Guy" your quick wit was much needed. While most of our drunk-dials to each other were utterly hilarious, I specifically looked forward to the drunk voice mails. Nothing beats a bunch of intoxicated slurring recorded for your listening pleasure. Seriously, if you don't have a drunk dial buddy, I suggest you get one. Who else would be willing to listen to you go on and on about Queso dip and Vodka Cran at 3 a.m.? You can never be too safe!


I am heading to Tyson's today for some sista time and some shopping.


SO I CAN MAKE IT JUICY FOR YA!




These are the dresses from Juicy that I want for Malibu. Soooo sexcited.

Xoxo,

Amaya

Friday, March 13, 2009

The Joker Made Him Do It











After arriving home from Sun Valley, Becca was informed about what was going down on the Shenandoah National Park. Missy was already on the park, enjoying a 2 hour round trip hike with her boyfriend. I had heard several different renditions of what happened and slowly the truth is starting to come out. It's a little preverse and sad, but all in all this 25 year old kid was mentally ill. I can't judge him, but I hope God has mercy. According to some friends, what happened here is what is called Murder by Cop Suicide. It's when you can't actually pull the trigger yourself, so you point to a cop and they do it for you. Very sad. Read on.

By Kate WiltroutThe Virginian-Pilot© March 13, 2009
Spc. Christopher Lanum loved the Joker, the character from Batman.
There were Joker posters and Joker masks in his barracks room at Fort Eustis.
Early Sunday morning, Lanum cleaned his knives and told his girlfriend, Patsy Ann Marie Montowski, that he was "preparing for war." He'd told her that before, but this time he was dressing the part, putting on a Joker costume he'd worn for Halloween.

He dictated a good bye note to his daughter; Montowski wrote one to her own children. The letter, labeled "To our families and friends," also contained messages to both their parents.
The letter was found hours later in Lanum's car at Fort Eustis, after the couple allegedly attacked Spc. Mitchell Stone, a soldier who shared a suite with Lanum in Building 696 at the Newport News post.

After allegedly slashing Stone's throat and shocking him repeatedly with a stun gun, Lanum fled with Montowski in her minivan with a 12-gauge shotgun, several knives and a bloody razor.
Stone was taken by helicopter to Sentara Norfolk General Hospital with serious injuries.
As Montowski drove west across Virginia, Lanum painted his face to look like the Joker.
Hours later, after leading police on a slow-speed chase through the serpentine roads of Shenandoah National Park, Lanum - a 25-year-old combat medic who had served 15 months in Iraq - was shot dead.

Montowski appeared Thursday in federal court in Norfolk. She is charged with being an accessory after the fact to Lanum's alleged assault on Stone.

Relatives of Lanum and Montowski declined to comment Thursday.
An affidavit filed Wednesday in federal court describes in detail the couple's alleged actions. The nine-page document, written by an FBI agent, includes information from interviews with Stone and Montowski, as well as descriptions of rooms 258 and 259 in the Fort Eustis barracks where Stone and Lanum lived.

Montowski, who was wounded slightly in the shootout, told investigators that the trouble started after she left Lanum's barracks room to get cigarettes out of her car.

She told them Lanum, who had been cleaning his knives, refused to let her back into his room. So she knocked on Stone's door and asked if she could pass through his room to the common area he shared with Lanum.

The men began arguing, she said, and a full fight ensued.

Stone, who Fort Eustis officials said Thursday has been released from the hospital, told an FBI agent that Lanum shocked him three times with the stun gun before he fought back and ended up wrestling Lanum on the floor. Stone said Lanum urged Montowski to use the stun gun, and she shocked him four more times before he was able to free himself.

As he tried to open the door and flee, Lanum came from behind and cut his throat, Stone said. Stone made it to the first floor of the building, where he told base EMS personnel that Lanum had attacked him right after Lanum's girlfriend passed through his room.

Fort Eustis MPs found blood spatter on the walls, floors and furniture, and a knife and loaded .45 caliber handgun on the floor of the common room. A blood-covered stun gun was on the floor of Stone's room. Hanging on a bedpost in Lanum's room was a purse with Montowski's driver's license inside.

Fort Eustis officials said Lanum, who returned from Iraq in September 2007, had been stationed at the base since November. Both he and Stone were assigned to the post's health clinic. The 600 uniformed and civilian employees of the clinic have been offered counseling, said Karla Gonzalez, the base public affairs officer.


Gonzalez said she had no information about whether Lanum, a combat veteran, had sought counseling or was receiving any type of treatment at Fort Eustis.

The base is about to finish a month-long safety stand-down focused on preventing suicide.
It isn't clear whether Lanum intended to harm himself or expected to die. Montowski said that in the letter he dictated to his daughter, Andrea, before the assault, he said he could not explain his actions.

Montowski told agents that she also wrote a good bye note to her children, but it was not a suicide note and she did so only because Lanum did.

She told the agents that after the chase, Lanum tried to kill himself with a shotgun. At one point, he handed her the gun and asked her to shoot him, but she threw the gun down.

According to the park rangers and Virginia State Police troopers involved in the chase, Lanum had the shotgun pointed at the officers who approached the driver's side. His finger was on the trigger, and the affidavit said that he refused repeated demands to put down the gun.

One trooper fired through the window, and Lanum's shotgun discharged. He was struck several times and was declared dead at the scene. It is unclear who fired the fatal shots.

Funeral services are scheduled for today for Lanum, who was born in Portsmouth and later attended Kellam High School in Virginia Beach.

Kate Wiltrout, (757) 446-2629, kate.wiltrout@pilotonline.com








Unbelievable

I can't let it go.
Its like an addiction
Wouldn't be my first
It is me.
keeps me coming back for more


Once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when you're feeling down


You're all that I want
Ive been waiting for so long


Make it happen?

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

What Are You Thankful For?

At the risk of sounding cliche' gratitude is paramount to maintaining perspective. Even now, as I'm feeling a bit down, I struggle to find objectivity in everyday life - but I'm going to try. Taking a que from my wise old Southern grandmother, I am attempting to single out just a few things of which I am thankful for.
  • Virginia Winters that have been tres' mild --75 degrees on Monday
  • Maxi dresses are in vogue--perfect for 'fat days'
  • Isaiah, Chandler, and Mathew think I'm awesome!
  • Stacy's Simply Naked Pita Chips have only 350 calories for an entire bag
  • It's 35 days until I'm 30!
  • Theres a trainer at the gym thats cute!
  • Tall, Non fat, Latte, 3 splenda, light whip-- yummy

And just what are you grateful for ?

Bitch Post!

To Whomever Used the Elliptical Before I Did,

That blue spray bottle strategically placed in front of you, the one that clearly says "SANITIZER", yeah, thats for sweat-noxious individuals such as yourself. Those of you who drop your beads of just Ick all over the place need to start wiping down your germs for the next healthy bod trying to use the equipment. Cuz me? I'm really not down with using my fingers as windsheild wipers while attempting to input my data or placing my hands in vats of your bodily fluids while trying to grasp the machine, k? Got that?


Signed,

Girl who just got over second round of cold this season



Dear Judy aka My Bikini Waxer,

I totally get that you're angry with your husband, Charlie for fooling around on you, as you should be. And I'm waaaay empathetic to the fact that you need sex reeaaallly bad. However Judy, a scorned woman describing me as the woman that fooled around with thou lovely Charlie,who is angry and frustrated, that does not bode well with hot wax and my delicate, beautiful, little pootie! I think you took off a top layer of skin this time!! Perhaps I can recommend a good therapist? I won't be making my next appointment btw, (cough, laser hair removal, cough)

Signed,

You're once faithful client who is now soaking in Aloe Vera!



Dear Post Man,

No! I'm not interested! Can't you just leave my packages or do I have to keep hiding around the back of my house?

Signed,

Girl who is seriously considering buying less online!



Dear my long time Manicurist,

I get it. You don't want me to understand what you're saying. But every time you abruptly stop our conversation in English and begin hurriedly chatting away in Vietnamese I get paranoid. I know you know this and you're probably talking about my dry winterized hands. Cut it out.

Signed,

Girl with hands complex.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Today

I didn't get much sleep last night, it was a horrible night for me. I'm sticking to my guns though.

Anyway,

Going to the doctor with my daddy today. Kennedy is going with us. She seriously is all things beautiful. She is the only one that can make me smile and melt at the same time. She loves her new frilly spring print dress that I bought her. I love to make her smile!

Yesterday I overslept because my heart was content. I was up at 5:30 this am and on the treadmill, I was dressed and ready to leave for daddy's dr's appt at 8:30! I'm going to try and cheer up. There's going to be a plethora of hot doctors and I will get my flirt on today!

This time next week my girlfriends and I will be in Malibu California soaking up the sun and working on our tans. Can not wait!!!

I will be fine. I always am!
"So I try to say goodbye my friend, I'd like to leave you with something warm. But never have I been a blue calm sea: I have always been a storm."

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Blame It on Rio

Madonna is on the latest cover of W Magazine. She photos by famed photog Steven Klein are steamy. Her rumored South American boyfriend, Jesus, is scantly clad and super sexy!


I love the necklace!


The face is flawless, the Chopard bracelet looks even better!


Old Hollywood glamour looks sexy on her.



The peephole shot is sooo sultry. Momma is in charge here!



The look on her face is pure lust, the leg is an open invitation.



Can you believe you can find these panties at Kohl's?! The boyfriend's guns are luscious!


This was probably a real shot between Madonna and her boy toy!

Friday, March 06, 2009

Weekly Recap

Went out to a cozy little lounge for happy hour with the girls. We had a great time just chatting and catching up. After weeks of being pent up in my own house with three babies it was nice to get some air and have a candy apple martini. The roads all lead back to sex and dating, we had quite a hot conversation going on :)

I came home and started to pack. My family and I going to try our ski trip one more time. It's only a matter of time until someone ends up in the hospital. We're hoping since everyone is coming with us, we'll be at the ER together! Same state and all.

There are and have been many highlights to my week. Marisa being one of them. I bought her a Juicy Couture hoodie at Bloomingdales. I wasn't sure how she would react. I know she loves the actual Juicy boutiques. She put my fears to rest when she said "It doesn't matter where it comes from, it's Juicy!"

I bought her two bikini's for summer from Victoria's Secret too. Smoking black and Pink Blush.




She has the beautiful spanish skin color and good genetics, she can make a paper bag look good. She's unaware of how good she actually looks. That makes her that much adorable!

Kennedy is selling her artwork for dresses! Anyone wanting a hand drawn crayola crayon work of art from Special K must be willing to buy her a pretty dress. She's loving yellow these days!

Emily is doing really well with reading and is above her grade level :) She is going to be playing soccer this year. Can't wait. Kennedy too.

It's time for me to head to the airport. Sun Valley is waiting. Ketchum Idaho. Who would have thought it would be such a cool place?!

Have a good weekend everyone. Lift everyone up in prayer! We can't get enough of them.

Amaya

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Guilty Pleasures


This is the only one I bought, sadly!


I love the intricate little detail!


Great color on any skin tone


Just enough coverage to leave something for the imagination!



Love the little bows, so glam, so girly! ------>


<------I could channel my inner Angelina! Don't forget the wig!


I immeadiately thought of Britney Spears, such a vixen.


This is so alluring and seductive. A birthday must :)


A girl can never have too many boyshorts!

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

The Bachelor

I'm pretty pissed with the outcome of The Bachelor. Jason Mesnick 'the catch', intially chose Melissa from Texas, a former Dallas Cowboys cheerleader. Jason popped the question to her and she accepted.





However after the taping of the show, according to Jason "The chemistry was no longer there." He decided that he no longer was in love with Melissa, took back the Neil Lane diamond from her and dumped her on live television!!! He instead reconciled with Molly from Michigan who is a Department store buyer.




We've all experienced some sort of heartbreak in our lives at one time. I feel for Melissa. She was adorable.

Everyone is asking what changed? What went wrong? None of us know really what happened, but it's not really that difficult to figure out, IMO. I'm thinking the sex with Melissa wasn't as good as it was with Molly all three times she screwed him on the show!!!

I speak for all the Melissa's out there when I say we must all slay a few dragons before we get our Prince! Tommorrow will be better!!!

Monday, March 02, 2009

Marisa

I caught up with her tonight. I realized that I actually missed this girl! She's so tres chic and adorable. After a long weekend in NYC she has a cold and is under the weather. Send her lots of positive chi and prayers!!! We <3 Marisa!!!