Lethargic

I'm so tired...

SLEEP DEPRIVATION SUCKS!!!

Nightmares suck.

Especially after you were awoken by a storm at 1:30 a.m only to find yourself too scared to go back to sleep, finally at 3:00 you realize you must or you'll feel like crap all day and when you do you have a big stupid nightmare that leaves you in tears because it's too real!

I've brushed my teeth twice already because I can't focus on anything other than the nightmare!

WORK

Happy Birthday

To Brandi :)

~ I have a meeting today with Linda Thornburgh and then I'm going to the office to work on some proposals. I need to catch up on work. I've been avoiding it. I think I'm just bitter that I'm not to get to teach this year :(

~ I did laundry and even folded clothes.

~ I ate Caramel Apple pie with French Vanilla icecream lastnight and I'm feeling like a cow.

~ I am going to start back on induction today. No more carb loading for me.

~ Next week I'm working out twice a day. I need to get better at working out.

~ Jennifer Keyser is in town with her partner, or wife! She went and tied the knot! Such an embarrassement to her brother Trey.

~ Isaiah returns to school on Monday. A big 2nd grader. I can't believe he's growing up. It's crazy.

~ Going out with the girls tonight. I think I'm going to stay sober. Or just drink enough Michelob Ultra's (2 carbs each) to get drunk.

~ Chad wants to go out on Saturday...I may take him up on his offer. He's tons of fun :)


Have a good day everyone :)

The Ghetto Fabulous

So they skip out on work to go shopping at this new mall. Miss B Haven called me at the crack of ass to see what I had planned for the day. After hearing about all the fun Mom, Becca, Jamie, Isaiah & Chan had while shopping, we decided that we needed to shop too. We went to this new mall, Colonial Mall. And the name says it all. Everything sucked. The stores were so 1999. Very plain, very boring stuff at boring retail prices. They did have a Neimans that looked as if everything was 2 seasons ago. I wasn't impressed much. All the other stores were off brand crap. Haven did manage to get a cute top for a steal at $2.49 on Clearance! After an overall disappointing day we decided that we were hungry. The day wouldn't be completely ghetto if we didn't eat from the Ghetto. So we decided that Taco Bell would be fitting. The Chicken Chalupa I had was filled with the right amount of grease and carbs that I love. Uh huh. Even the pimple faced taco bell cashier was rude to us. I think she overheard me telling Haven that she looked like a Before picture in a magazine for Clearsil. I'm harsh. She was rude and even overcharged me. I didn't complain though. She looked like she was doing community service anyway. Poor thang. After eating all of the unhealthy food we decided that it was time to go home. Everyone knows that my driving is poor and thats where I'll leave off at. It was :) No accidents but poor.

So it turns out that Eric read my journal yesterday and it has upset him. I have never hid anything from him and I have no reason to. After discussing everything, he was fine. I don't like the fact that he was upset though!

Haven asked me to babysit tonight, I agreed to. He's still asleep at 10 pm. He has this new skill of hitting me everytime I politely ask for a kiss. I don't get it!

I'm bored. I organized my desk, balanced my checkbook, took Matty on a Stroll along the parkway and even fed the ducks. Now, I'm here and I'm bored. No entertainment at all going on.

Goodnight

A

He's on the brain...

...Even at 5:30 A.M. I remembered him saying that he saw a car like mine and he thought of me. I remembered him saying "give me a call back sometime next week." I remember him telling me how everything is good with him. I know this isn't right, so I wish God would just let me forget about him. He's a great guy, wonderful even. I just don't want to spend so much time just thinking of him and wishing and wondering. This isn't fair to me, nor is it fair for anyone else (Eric, Scott) So...I just want to let go already.

I saw my new favorite commercial again with the Malibu car. This wasn't a car like mine, but the little girl is super cute. She's outside trying to perform magic by saying "Ta Da" and making the car start....after 2 failed attempts her daddy comes outside and shows her how to do it, think genie style, and while she does it he remotely starts it, keylessly and she's totally fascinated by that and they're all happy and they get in the car and drive off :) Super Cute. This Malibu isn't like mine. My car is more of a 'geeky' car. I'll take some pictures and post a link for now...I luv my car. Most of all, a lot of people aren't driving them around here yet. I'm a trendsetter I tell ya!!!

http://www.chevrolet.com/malibu/gallery.jsp


Yesterday on Oprah, did anyone catch it? TOTALLY FREAKING NUTS!!! Kids are wanting sex changes and hoping that they're boobs and penis' will fall off! HOLY HELL! And the crazy part is that their parents are 'supportive'. It's so crazy to think that there are people out there that are cool with the whole gender bending thing....I'd be spanking some ass for sure.

Have a good one :)


Oh and if you don't have a blog yet...GET ONE!

News News!

We talked today! A grand total of 5 mins and 14 secs to be exact :) We just talked about random stuff and how each other was doing. Made my evening for sure. I still miss him but hanging up with him I realized that I am doing well without him. Talking was good for me. I'm finally getting closure. This is what I need from him.

In other news, Eric and I talked briefly tonight. He got a phone call from his dr. he took the call and never called me back. I want to know whats going on, but I feel as if I call him too much.

UGH.

Pyscho Gary asked my sister out. My sister even considered it for a moment. That makes me sick. Very sick. Both are sick. Even though theres not the slightest bit of jealousy, I don't even want to think of them two going out. So, I called Pyscho and told him NEVER EVER TO CALL ME UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE AND NEVER EVER CALL ME OUT LIKE THAT IN FRONT OF MY SISTER. He acted dumb. So I hung up on his ass. And what the hell is Becca thinking anyway? Shady. This isn't like her though.

I saw Danny tonight and we talked. For some odd reason, I think that he likes me...not that the feeling is mutual, it's just that I don't want him to start liking me, that will make our friendship weird. I'm a big fan of boys and girls being just friends.

So I haven't talked to my friend Matt in NYC in a few days now. He called out of the blue lastweek. He discussed everything from relationships to politics and then my phone died. He's a great guy. One of the first things he said to me was "Are you loving Jesus?!" How cute is that? He tried to tell me that he hasn't slept with any chics at all since being in NYC and he's been there for 2 years now. I call bullshit. Oh well, Matt was always weird like that. Never wanted to give it up without a fight.

I just talked to Lisa & Kennedy. She said that Kennedy wasn't feeling well today. Hearing that almost brought me to tears. They're all so innocent and sweet. Poor Reece got his shots today too. The meds he had to take knocked him out cold. Poor babies. I could never be a mother, I'd be crying all the time! I'm so sensetive when it comes to babies.

Headache is getting the best of me, I'm going to down some advil with some fresh squeezed lemonade :) Speaking of lemons, Sunday at Mama Mia's, our fave Italian Restaurant, the waitress brought Emma some lemons with her water, because I had water with lemon to burn calories to drink, and the waitress noticed that Emma and I were dressed almost alike so she brought her back lemons for her water too :) Isn't that cute?!

Mushy me is going to work on some proposals and get some work done.

A

So early dammit.

It's an early 5:40 am and I've been up for a while. I went to bed at 11'ish and woke up at 4 this morning....

T--I saw where you called. At that point I was snoring. My phone only rang 2x's and I was too sleepy to call back.

Issaac and I talked for a bit lastnight. He's doing well and he's putting together a portfolio for school, so exciting :)

Kenny & I even chatted briefly lastnight. I think we've resolved our anger issues for the time being. He has the tendency of being a really sweet guy sometimes...we'll see.

I'm off to do some sit ups and then It's to the office I go :)

-Maya

Aunt Flow is in town

And I hate when she visits. I feel like she always has to be mentioned in my journal. She's a pretty mean bitch. I'm not cool with Aunt Flow. She causes me to double over in pain and sleep all evening with a heated pad on my protruding tummy. She forces me eat tons of fattening foods that I can't get enough of. She makes me scream at my sister for waking me up to tell me that she's going to go excercise while I sleep my entire evening away in the softest pajamas I own. Aunt flow takes away all of my energy. 4 days left til she's out of here for another 28 days. Ya know, there has been times where I've prayed to see Aunt flow, but when I'm taking 4 Advil and 2 Midol to relieve some of the bloatedness and the sore boobs and the cramps from hell that don't quit, I have to wonder why such a Just and Loving God would do this to a woman. Because to me, this is medievel torture! I think I'm going to have to fast to figure this one out with God. I deserve an explanation. Which has me thinking, I wonder if Noah & Sarah got it on during Biblical times. The Bible says that the woman will shed blood and she must not be touched for period of time after this since she's 'unclean', I'm wondering since the Sinful Noah & Sarah had many kids, did they get it on? Did they not follow the Law of God? Day 6-11 after the period is when you ovulate, thats when you get preganant...I'm thinking Noah is dirty.

Oh...so anyway...I had a rather good weekend. Went to a bar lastnight, girls nite out became everyone's night out. Mike, Danny, Ross, Ian-Bradley, Faith, Courtney, Brandi, Davy and I all had a few rounds of beer. The more I drank, the worse it tasted. Beer is nasty. Makes me pee too much too.

Tonight, I was supposed to go excercise, I didn't. Came home fell asleep and woke up to eat peanut butter and Pecan Pie that Grandma brought over today...so bad for me. I just got out of the shower and now I smell like my new fave scent from Victoria's Secret...Forbidden Fantasy. If you haven't smelled it yet--you need to. Definetly a staple for a while atleast!!!

Going to bed now...I think.

I'm walking on Sunshine :)

I woke up this morning to the sun shining thru my window at the crack of ass. I didn't mind because I live for moments like those. I took my morning shower in my new favorite scent from Victoria's Secret, Floral Fantasy. So yummy!

I'm sporting my favorite cropped pants from Bananna Republic with the cutest of all Camisoles and of course you can't live without 3-4 inch heels in public. In other words I have a very important meeting this a.m. with Channel 9 News :) Unfortuanately, September is a super busy time of month that would require me in the office no later than 8 am stat. Which only makes me wish I was teaching!!! No tears. I'm a big girl.

I'm listening to a mix CD I made for Broke Ass and I'm listening to one of his favorite songs...Baby by Ashanti.

I got this jones forming in my bones

for a man who indeed took over my soul,

understand?

I couldn't breath if he ever said he'd leave

I'd get on my knees til they're bloody red

I don't know if you get it yet,

he's like the lighter to my cigarette

watch me smoke

I never knew another human life had the power

to take over mine

so baby baby baby

I love it when I hear your name

got me saying....

BABY BABY BABY BABY

See I can never feel alone with you in my life

I'd give up everything I own for you

won't think twice

Almost ashamed how I mesmerize

I lose my thought looking in your eyes

cuz your kisses make my lips quiver

and when you touch me my whole body shivers

I can see how another life can have the power to take over mine

because you're my

BABY BABY BABY BABY

Baby, I can't see my worth living here on God's green earth

You don't know what you've done to me,

I never thought I'd need you desperatley

It's kinda sick how I'm stuck on you

but I don't care cuz I'm needing you

how I feel will remain the same

cuz you're my BABY

when the world starts to stress me out

where I run is to you boy, without a doubt

You're the one who keeps me sane and I can't complain

Now this is how another human life has the power to take over mine

Because you're my

BABY BABY BABY BABY

Some would say I was in love....how...it was only 2 short months. But he promised me so much that I fell for everything. I wanted to fall in love I think. Oh well :) It worked. Got me nowhere, but I'll take the pain to taste the sweet :) Aside from all the bitterness and the heartache he's a great guy beneath the surface. I'm glad he's happy. He deserves to be. Everyone is entitled to happiness, I just wished it was me.

Who wouldn't love a man saying this to you? "With that smile you pull the deepest secrets from my heart and in all honesty I'm speechless and I don't know where to start"

Fucking men!!!

T--You drive me crazy! I'll get back with you with my suggestions :)

I should get to the office now and pretend to be busy while I text message T & Adam all day.

Don't forget to presoak the shirt, T!

Think of me, think of me fondly when we say goodbye, remember me once in a while!

~*SuperGirl*~

I'm walking on Sunshine :)

I woke up this morning to the sun shining thru my window at the crack of ass. I didn't mind because I live for moments like those. I took my morning shower in my new favorite scent from Victoria's Secret, Floral Fantasy. So yummy!

I'm sporting my favorite cropped pants from Bananna Republic with the cutest of all Camisoles and of course you can't live without 3-4 inch heels in public. In other words I have a very important meeting this a.m. with Channel 9 News :) Unfortuanately, September is a super busy time of month that would require me in the office no later than 8 am stat. Which only makes me wish I was teaching!!! No tears. I'm a big girl.

I'm listening to a mix CD I made for Broke Ass and I'm listening to one of his favorite songs...Baby by Ashanti.

I got this jones forming in my bones

for a man who indeed took over my soul,

understand?

I couldn't breath if he ever said he'd leave

I'd get on my knees til they're bloody red

I don't know if you get it yet,

he's like the lighter to my cigarette

watch me smoke

I never knew another human life had the power

to take over mine

so baby baby baby

I love it when I hear your name

got me saying....

BABY BABY BABY BABY

See I can never feel alone with you in my life

I'd give up everything I own for you

won't think twice

Almost ashamed how I mesmerize

I lose my thought looking in your eyes

cuz your kisses make my lips quiver

and when you touch me my whole body shivers

I can see how another life can have the power to take over mine

because you're my

BABY BABY BABY BABY

Baby, I can't see my worth living here on God's green earth

You don't know what you've done to me,

I never thought I'd need you desperatley

It's kinda sick how I'm stuck on you

but I don't care cuz I'm needing you

how I feel will remain the same

cuz you're my BABY

when the world starts to stress me out

where I run is to you boy, without a doubt

You're the one who keeps me sane and I can't complain

Now this is how another human life has the power to take over mine

Because you're my

BABY BABY BABY BABY

Some would say I was in love....how...it was only 2 short months. But he promised me so much that I fell for everything. I wanted to fall in love I think. Oh well :) It worked. Got me nowhere, but I'll take the pain to taste the sweet :) Aside from all the bitterness and the heartache he's a great guy beneath the surface. I'm glad he's happy. He deserves to be. Everyone is entitled to happiness, I just wished it was me.

Who wouldn't love a man saying this to you? "With that smile you pull the deepest secrets from my heart and in all honesty I'm speechless and I don't know where to start"

Fucking men!!!

T--You drive me crazy! I'll get back with you with my suggestions :)

I should get to the office now and pretend to be busy while I text message T & Adam all day.

Don't forget to presoak the shirt, T!

Think of me, think of me fondly when we say goodbye, remember me once in a while!

~*SuperGirl*~

It's been a while

Since I updated this. Since the 11th, a lot has happened, such as Dad's Birthday Party that was a total surprise for him. He loved it. It was wonderful. Was fun for all. I've actually considered taking a position at a Private School here. After being cornered by my mother and giving me guilt trips about the gallery, I think that has basically been shot down. Daddy has been supportive and has told me to do as I want and he'd support me. I just wish Mom didn't have so much power over me...

Greg wanted to come over and spend an evening at my place, a sleepover, if you will....after discussing it with T, I decided that it wasn't a good idea after all. He seems like a great guy and we could definetly hang out, it's just that the entire idea was a bit sketchy.

Adam & I have been in contact recently. It's sick, but I really care for this boy. I need to move on and leave the past where it is. Thats so old.

Eric & I have been getting along rather well, as much as possible without ever seeing each other. He had a date tonight with a chick to catch a flick...how cute is that?!

Scott & I haven't talked in a while...I don't know whats going on with him. I think ever since he showed me so little interest, I think I lost taste in him. It's sad because initially, everyone, including T, knows how much I was feeling him. I won't give up, just yet though....

Married Mike and I talked a bit yesterday. He went to Vegas over the weekend and partied. He's heading to Mexico on Thursday too. Hot trotting for sure.

I did a lot of shopping over the weekend, just enough to make me feel good...I'm fiending for more trips to the mall. Since fall is around the corner and thats the time to really tune into the fashionista in me...Can't wait :)

Enough for now.

Maya

He called.

Okay, okay..he text messaged me first then I called him! He's not doing well. Seems like he has a pyscho on his hands.

Went to the office, left early, came home & made dinner...Becca made a Pina Colada cake...the bitch. How am I supposed to stay away from that? What was she smoking? She knows I devour that shtuff.

T & I talked a lot lastnight. I was being petty and aggravating at the same time. Poor T! The shit he puts up with from me! Gotta luv him for that.

Scott & I had a heart to heart lastnight. I told him what was up. He's always neglecting me so I had to set him straight. He acted oblivious, but thats just what guys do. No sweat off my back.

So I'm working on a project for Eric. I've come to realize how much fun Mr Eric can be. He totally gets my sense of humor now. Whereas before I always had to break it down for him. Everything I say & do...he loves. For example we talked today while I was grocery shopping and I told him I didn't remember where I parked my car and that I would have to set off the panic alarm in order to hunt down my car--the guy almost busted a nut. I like that he gets my sense of humor, however I don't want him thinking I'm a complete idiot. I just have the beginging stages of Altzheimers! Okay, so thats not funny.

As for Daddy's party everything is taken care of so far. Sunday is the illumination ceremonies at the Cave, I have to be on hand to read some unimportant and useless info to a crowd of Chinese/Japanese people who don't even know what I'm saying. Basically it's just good PR.

I'm going to take Emma outside and play for a bit.

Tuesday

~ Hung out with J LO & Derek Jeter all day :)
~ Mom says that Emma took my picture down off the coffee table and was yelling for "Mini" all day today...I came home, she had her hands on her hip, yelling "Mini"--That put a smile on my face.
~ I bought a couple ofT-shirts at Fair Oaks today that says Talk Nerdy To Me & Fo Shizzle!
~ I chilled with Reece, Renee & Rod for a bit...fun times.
~ Got a text message from My Baby. HOW THE HELL THAT HAPPENED I DON"T KNOW!!! T and I spent all night talking about him, and at 12:59 am he left a text of just 'What Up'--I'm thrilled.
~ Scott just called, calling him back shortly.
~ DIdn't work out today :( I SUCK.

I think it's time to...GO TO BED :)

~*I love weddings! Especially hot summer weddings where the heat makes your skin glisten and you look radiant under the summer starry night sky! When you're dolled up in the hautest Summer 2004 Bridal Couture in the perfect shade of Lavender. Yep, I live for those, and you can't forget about a haute man as your date. The kind that dresses stylishly and follows fashion trends...the kind that dances well to "TURN ME ON" by Kevin Lyttle. The kind that wear your favorite cologne for men without even knowing it's your fave :) Higher by DIOR. You can't go wrong. All of that combined equates for the perfect August evening.*~

Yesterday started off horribly. I had to make a cameo at the local ER. That was total fun, as you can imagine, but I didn't mind conversing with the intelligent, Oliver Peoples eyewear wearing doctors whom seem to know my own body better than Oui. After indulging on a few hits of Morphine, interovenously of course and telling the resident Doctors that I'm a regular, that I hit the ER a couple times a weekend just for a quick pick-me-up for the Percosets and the Morphine and managing to make them believe me for a quick second even after I told them I'd already blown all of my veins due to everlasting heroin addiction...which did seem believable due to all of the bruises on my forearm because of my routine morning ritual of shooting a few cc's of insulin into my bloodstream, Dr. Gerfin did believe me for a nano-second until I managed to crack my Miss Congeniality 2000 watt smile. I got so comfortable that I told Dr. Gerfin that I will be back next week too, only to just make him feel me up. He lost total control over that remark and told me that I really must stop because I was making his side hurt...Of course that only lead me to tell him that I like playing Doctor too! It was all in the game of fun. He did a couple of name droppings of places that he frequents....I just may have to remember those.

The wedding was impecable. Lovely. Great Music. Great Sermon/Vows even with the words "OBEY" in the vows....I personally would have to drop. Unless it is to Obey God, not my husband.

The reception was grand too. Loved the decor, the flowers, the candles, the everything. Tara was stunning as always. Beautiful Bride :) Michael was a looker as well. Total eye candy.

Now, I'm sipping on a water with lemon. I didn't drink too much lastnight, but I still have a horrible headache, the kind that could make you pull your hair out! Yeah, not even. Not eva.

I'm fully dressed in my best Sunday attire. I'm going over to my grandmothers with the video camera. Tara & Michael are showing up at 2:00, Grandma has arranged for them to leave her home in a horse & carriage and head to the Victorian in that. How cute is that?! It's the perfect afternoon for a carriage ride.

Mom, the lady who told me this morning that I wasn't nice--is ready and is standing at the top of my staircase yelling for me. I feel like a child. A child with boobs. A child playing dress up in heels, with boobs. I need to wear this dress more often. I suddenly feel fullfilled.

I'm off to see the wizard...

Pain Pain Go Away...

Ugh, Holy Hell! I woke up in excrutiating pain this morning. Yesterday, the same thing. It's my sides...they're killing me.

I have a headache from hell too. I'm going to go to the hospital before my hair appt. at 4:00. I took 4 advil and that's eased the pain, on a scale of 1-10, I'm at a 7 right now, whereas earlier I was an 11.

The wedding is today and this is a great day to feel like all hell.

Update later...probably tommorrow.

I could be the worst daughter on earth...

However, I'm not :) Today was Mom's birthday. I knew her birthday was August 5th, but it never crossed my mind today. Dad & Mom showed up early at my house this morning, Dad asked what we had planned for Mom...confused at first until it dawned on me that TA DA! Today's Mom's Birthday!!!

Dad was furious, but Becca, Haven, Ian & saved the day. While Dad took Mom to play golf, I called everyone and made the arrangements. We all had dinner, caught up, and I even had a glass of white wine. I knew I shouldn't simply because of the carbs,

We all chipped in for a Day Spa certificate and a Hermes scarf. She adored it. She asked for a freaking salad spinner and thats exactly what dad bought her! Gay.

In other news, I toured the Country Club today. Thats where I intend to host Mom & Dad's Birthday party. I just have to cut the guest list in half. That will be hard. We're at 102 now. Including drinks, the dinner is @ $25 per head...which is sensible considering all the options and it includes the dinner wine, the cocktails, beers etc....Now, the hard part is up to me. I get to cut the guests. Fun fun. I somehow always get stuck with the coolest job.


I think that Eric is becoming interested in me. He confessed that he read the journal too. Thats great. Invade my life, please! Again, Thanx!

Scott called me at 1:00 this a.m. I didn't answer. I crashed early. I just want him to persue me a bit. If he is infact interested I'll be able to tell. His signals are too weird and hard to read.

T & Nicole talked. All I can say is (BECAUSE HE READS THIS) is that it's about damn time. They didn't get very far. Except she knows exactly what he's feeling and I just hope for his sake that she doesn't take his vulrenablity for granted. I think he'd give anything to have her back. Special prayers for T, for sure.

I thought of Broke Ass today, as always. I realize now that everything that happend was a part of God's plan and he intended for us to cross paths. I just can't wait until his face stops haunting me. I can't wait until that day comes that I say Broke Ass who?!!! I want to get over him so bad. I know he never thinks about me, I know that he doesn't spend this much time focusing on me so why do I do it for him? I don't want to talk bad about him, he just simply was in love with HER...even after all the shit he said. Did he really think it though? Or was he really angry? Who knows. Why do I care?

Weekend plans include: Wedding Rehearsel tommorrow then partying later with Miss B Haven...Saturday, Wedding madness, then ass shaking all night :) Sunday is an afternoon tea for Tara & Michael. My grandmother is hosting it. Should be fun. Grandma has great taste and always provides the best Raspberry Scones :) Ooops, CARBS--FUCKERS.

I didn't run again today, I've been too busy. TOMMOROW for sure.

Going to bed now....God Bless.

~A

Midnight

It's midnight and I'm just getting around to updating my journal. I just got home...

I went to the office today and took care of lots of dreaded paper work. I was there all alone for most of the day.

I got a Brazillian today. Josephina hooked me up. She knows my pootie inside & out. She don't miss a beat! Whats bad is walking out after the waxing...PAINFUL.

Mom, Dad, Missy, Eric, Emma came over for dinner. Mom cooked Mexican for everyone. I had a low carb Mexican night. Chicken tacos are tasty. I could think of better foods, but better foods are loaded with carbs. This will have to work until I'm satisfied.

I walked through my door this evening and Emma went nuts. She wouldn't let go of me. Becca said that she was yelling my name all evening :) Doesn't that just make your day??

I'm tired. Like always. I think it's going to be a shopping day for me tommorrow. We'll see.

Off to dreamland...........

Today went well. I didn't do much of anything. I did get an increadibly sweet email from someone--Came out of nowhere! I was touched, to say the least.

Snippet:
So I guess what I'm trying to say in this message is that I'm sorry for actinglike a one-dimensional jerk. I pride myself as someone who can offer more to someone than just one aspect of his life. I obviously have not proven this toyou so far. I like you for so many reasons... your charismatic, your sense of humor is amazing, I find you incredibly attractive,you have an ability to surprise me where most people cannot, your sensitive without being over-sensitive and your confidence without coming across like a snob are just a few reasons that come to mind right away. However, most of all I like you b/c you're genuine. It's the most underrated characteristic intoday's world. It's a quality that doesn't come to you overnight, it developsfrom the time we come into existence and not everyone has it but fortunately,you're one that possesses it.

How can I not smile to that?!

I got my tan on today. My body is warm now. Feels good.

I met up with Rebecca & Elizabeth for coffee at Starbucks. I met 'Caleno' there. I think he's Italian not sure... He gave me his number, but being my brilliant self, I left the number on the table! Very rude, I know. I could have put it to good use, but oh well.

T & I are on day 2 of Zippy carbs. I'm going strong. I haven't gotten an update on him yet. We have to stay in contact, he motivates my ass!


Things to do tommorrow:
~Pick-up dry cleaning
~Return calls, tons even
~Do paper work, contracts, invoices, etc.
~Call Brandi
~Narrow down the dates to Tara's wedding...IMPORTANT


I"m going to bed now! Thuper Tired :)

Amaya

Through the Storm...

Today was the funeral and it goes without saying how devastatingly painful it was for the entire family. Kat is just nuts. Hearing her scream "Don't leave me, don't let them take my baby" left me sobbing aloud. Her heart is broken. She's a beautiful strong woman and to see her down on her knees and in pain, it kills me. I pray she'll be okay. She has her boys, Logan & Ethan and they will help her get out of bed every morning and take on the world. I'll keep praying for strength.

There was over 100 people in attendance, there were people standing in the Vestibul (SP), he was loved by many thats for sure. But finally he's no longer in pain and he's at peace. If he could come back to earth, I'm sure he wouldn't want to. Gosh, I can't believe he's gone though. I just realized that. He is gone. Wow. What happens next? Nothing will ever be the same. What happens at Christmas? Holidays? Just wow.

It all brings back the painful day in January of 2000. A day I'll never forget. I still remember the music, I still listen to it occasionally. It keeps me grounded. I sure do miss him. Everyday. All day. Everyday I shed a tear for him and I wonder if I'll ever get over that? He's watching over us now though...
"When my life is almost gone, hear my cry, hear my call, hold my hand, l'est I fall"

---------------------------
On to something else...

Damn you, Induction!!!

So, T & I have decided to do a ketonic diet. We're staying under 20 carbs per day. It's basically the Atkins Diet. We're going to work out fiercely too :) 200-400 sit ups a day along with a protein shake or 2 ;)

Today has been rather easy, simply because I've been so busy...I did infact have lunch, I'm such a nerd. Today has been a complete blur and it's definetly been a long one.

I had a big grilled chicken salad with Blue Cheese dressing for dinner and it was rather fullfilling.

I'm estimating that my total carb intake, WITH lunch is about 15 Carbs.
I've had three 33 oz.s of water. The water is good for my skin too. Love water lots. Gotta have the water.

Things to do tommorrow:
~Amber's Scrapbooking party @ 6:00
~Quick meeting with Qyweneth @ Allison
~Mani & Pedi, maybe--no appt yet.
~A lunch date with my Aunt Carmen

My day isn't going to be busy at all, Thank God!

We're making the plans for Courtney's Bachlorette Party in NYC, Can't wait.

This weekend is Tara & Michael's wedding. Our dresses are super cute. She's doing Pastel Colors, I'm in lavender. I love my dress too!

The following weekend is Daddy's party. He has no idea yet :) Total Surprise

I've been dreaming of my wedding since I was 10! Of course the color theme will be all different shades of Pink...from a Blush to a Mauve to a Coral. Flowers will be white Roses with some diamonds in the bouquet. I want a summer wedding, on the beach...at Sunset, no shoes, and I want the waves to crash at our feet...You can say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one!

Highlight of the day: Seeing all my family! Love my family :)

T emailed me this: "amaya, you're my inspiration" How sweet is that? This guy is a total cupcake. So sweet.

Time to get into my jammies :)


Thanx for all the sweet IM's, Emails and Prayers, everybody! God Bless you all!!!

~*Amaya *~



amaya, you're my inspiration

Banking

~ I'm super happy. I just landed a huge deal with UPS :) I don't have to work the entire month of August :) KIDDING. Sorta.

~ I went shopping, got some cute skirts and I went nuts at Victoria's Secret too.
~ Had lunch at Qudoba with Justin, Mark & Richard, I even bought....They were so easy to chill with. So laid back. Seems we all like the Yankees. Good guys, can't wait to work with them!

~I talked to Eric, he doesn't know who Jimmy Choo is!!! Never heard of Manolo Blahnik either--what kind of man is this? Sheesh.

~I'm getting ready for the funereal now...it starts at 3:00. Say a prayer for us. We need all we can get :)


God Bless & God Keep

Sundays are great...

When you don't have to watch your family grieve.

Went to Church, had lunch @ Grandma's. Then we all went to Kat's and spent a lot of the evening there.

Emma now says 'BATH' . She's so smart. I painted her nails again. She's so adoreable. I love her so much.

Tommorrow is the funereal and I don't know what to expect. Funereals are great to begin with.... Sheesh...

K...on to finish some work, no work for me again until I say... However I have a huge meeting with UPS tommorrow...it's so mine already, but we shall see.

Goodnight :)

It's a Beautiful Day

I woke up in a great mood. I'm on my way out the door to Church :)

Thoughts for the day: "If somebody loves you, won't they always love you?"

Good luck to T....He's going to go see about a girl ;)

I think I'm going to change my outfit again.... I'm too sexy for my shirt..too sexy yeah!


XOXO
A to da M to da A to da Y to da A