Today was the funeral and it goes without saying how devastatingly painful it was for the entire family. Kat is just nuts. Hearing her scream "Don't leave me, don't let them take my baby" left me sobbing aloud. Her heart is broken. She's a beautiful strong woman and to see her down on her knees and in pain, it kills me. I pray she'll be okay. She has her boys, Logan & Ethan and they will help her get out of bed every morning and take on the world. I'll keep praying for strength.
There was over 100 people in attendance, there were people standing in the Vestibul (SP), he was loved by many thats for sure. But finally he's no longer in pain and he's at peace. If he could come back to earth, I'm sure he wouldn't want to. Gosh, I can't believe he's gone though. I just realized that. He is gone. Wow. What happens next? Nothing will ever be the same. What happens at Christmas? Holidays? Just wow.
It all brings back the painful day in January of 2000. A day I'll never forget. I still remember the music, I still listen to it occasionally. It keeps me grounded. I sure do miss him. Everyday. All day. Everyday I shed a tear for him and I wonder if I'll ever get over that? He's watching over us now though...
"When my life is almost gone, hear my cry, hear my call, hold my hand, l'est I fall"
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On to something else...
Damn you, Induction!!!
So, T & I have decided to do a ketonic diet. We're staying under 20 carbs per day. It's basically the Atkins Diet. We're going to work out fiercely too :) 200-400 sit ups a day along with a protein shake or 2 ;)
Today has been rather easy, simply because I've been so busy...I did infact have lunch, I'm such a nerd. Today has been a complete blur and it's definetly been a long one.
I had a big grilled chicken salad with Blue Cheese dressing for dinner and it was rather fullfilling.
I'm estimating that my total carb intake, WITH lunch is about 15 Carbs.
I've had three 33 oz.s of water. The water is good for my skin too. Love water lots. Gotta have the water.
Things to do tommorrow:
~Amber's Scrapbooking party @ 6:00
~Quick meeting with Qyweneth @ Allison
~Mani & Pedi, maybe--no appt yet.
~A lunch date with my Aunt Carmen
My day isn't going to be busy at all, Thank God!
We're making the plans for Courtney's Bachlorette Party in NYC, Can't wait.
This weekend is Tara & Michael's wedding. Our dresses are super cute. She's doing Pastel Colors, I'm in lavender. I love my dress too!
The following weekend is Daddy's party. He has no idea yet :) Total Surprise
I've been dreaming of my wedding since I was 10! Of course the color theme will be all different shades of Pink...from a Blush to a Mauve to a Coral. Flowers will be white Roses with some diamonds in the bouquet. I want a summer wedding, on the beach...at Sunset, no shoes, and I want the waves to crash at our feet...You can say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one!
Highlight of the day: Seeing all my family! Love my family :)
T emailed me this: "amaya, you're my inspiration" How sweet is that? This guy is a total cupcake. So sweet.
Time to get into my jammies :)
Thanx for all the sweet IM's, Emails and Prayers, everybody! God Bless you all!!!
~*Amaya *~
amaya, you're my inspiration
