It is sooooooooo

Fucking cold my nipples are going to fall off! 20 degrees? Sheesh! Like the soldier that I am I'm going to run to the gym, work-out and then run home in fucking 20 degrees!!! I think I'm still trying to talk myself into this...Crazy? Probably. Lately though I can do anything! I should mention that since the new year I've lost 4lbs. I probably lost more but friday night I had about 32 too many!!!

A lot of people has been asking how I'm feeling, how I'm doing, they've noticed a lot of subtle changes. The truth is 2006 was easily one of the hardest years for me. I have a lot of anxiety sourrounding my father's health. If you know me at all you know that he's my everything. He's my rock & my glue. We were told last spring by his doctors that he wouldn't make it through the year. We've proven them wrong, yet again. He and my mother dropped everything to come be with me so I can help take care of him and I decided that I was going to spend every waking moment with him and I wasn't going to miss a thing. It wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. Infact being around him and seeing him weak took it's toll. I lost my spirit, my soul in the the process. It's mentally and emotionally draining. It's waking up in the middle of the night checking to make sure he's breathing, it's scheduling appointments and taking him to the doctor and the doctor asks why are we here, I look around dumbfounded and told him we need a check-up only to find out he had one three weeks prior. It's making the doctors perform EKG's to prove to me that everything is working. It's being the Rx nazi. Only I'm the one that can give him his meds and if anyone messes with his chart that I have in the guest room be prepared for war! I found myself doing almost crazy things...offering to give him foot rubs because in fifth grade Laura Ramsey told me that you die from your feet up so I had to make sure he was still living! It's actually a lot worse than that but to save myself from any further embarassment I'll keep those neurotic behaviors to myself.

While dealing with my father's health and well being I met a very handsome, successfull businessman from Nova, Carlos. A recent divorcee with a beautiful daughter who ruled his world. She was the type of girl you can find on the cover of Teen Vogue. Her beauty so real an natural I'd almost find myself envious because to her, beauty came naturally. Me, I had to buy mine @ sephora! He was everything I needed to take my mind off of my life at home. He was rough around the edges, smooth with the ladies and always a gentleman. He made me happy for a short while. You all have heard me talk about him in passing often referring to him as my spanish lover...It quickly ended before it really began. It wasn't to be. He was always brave, courageous and benevolent. I don't trust people but...I trusted him because he defined what a man was supposed to be. We had issues from the start...He always felt that I was with Kenny when Kenny is and was in NYC. Kenny is one of my best friends. He knows me well and I can trust Kenny with my life, Because I always talked about Kenny this made him uncomfortable....perhaps he didn't trust me? Who knows???

Nevertheless my social life went out like a light. I stayed home with my family became even more of a hermit until one day my mother brought it to my attention that I was really sad, I had gained weight and I needed to do my roots!! Just as my mother would say it to0! No sugar coating from her! Her words became ammo. I went back to seeing my therapist, we decided that I would try Lexapro. I've been taking them since 2007 began and I see a lot of improvements already. Such as ~ going out with my friends, ~ going on a casual date here and there, ~ being more physically active. The downside to this medicine is that I've lost my sex drive. Yep...I only masturbate perhaps 3x's a week...a shame really. Good news is I have faith that I'm going to work through my depression and pick up where I left off. My parents are back home in Mclean and mom is back to work. I'm back in class and meeting new people everyday. I guess had it not been for those lousy doctors who told us to start planning my father's funereal this would have never happened. But I'm glad it did.

My friends from LA and I are going to be hanging out this weekend and catching up. I'm really looking forward to it. I'll update on Monday :)

Have a fun weekend!


Amaya

I'm Not Scared

Just changing.

I was never looking for approval from anyone but you

And though this journey's over, I'd go back if you'd ask me to.

Between the ink of my tatoo, behind the cigarette, behind your crown royal and devilish smile

You can do the math a thousand ways but you can't erase the facts...others come and others go

Just the like the change in seasons I know you'll be back again.

You're my crack of sunlight.

I'm not scared just changing.

Just when I thought...

I had issues, my friend Ryan just found out that he has thyroid cancer. He's a young 20 something. The prognosis-- He's going to be just fine! He's a very talented baseball genius who is in phenomenal mental and physical shape. Send him lots of positive chi, girls ;)

Did I mention how fantastic my friends are? Prolly not...My west coast pimps and ho's are flying out to spend some quality time with yours truly! Yep...they know just what I need. And I need to let go of some frustration on somebody's ass!!!

I went to my dr's appt this a.m. and it was a nice visit. He is very proud of me and listened to me as usual only offering advice, no judgement. Thats all :)

Worked out like the spiffy bitch that I am...Listened to Britney and the slut keeps me motivated. Gotta luv Britney!

My thoughts on the Globes....

Amaya's Choice

Best Dressed

Jennifer Lopez
Jessica Biehl
Ali Larter
Drew Barrymore

Honorable Mention
Jada Pinkett Smith

Worst Dressed
Cameron Diaz
Jennifer Love Hewitt
Hillary Swank

Most Overrated

Angelina Jolie

I don't remember who won what, but I'm sure I can tell you who wore who!!!

~*Amaya*~

Amayalicious!

Finally, A fun weekend! Met up with my friends and went out like the rock stars that we are! It was so nice to be with my ho's ( I mean that in the nicest possible way ;) Even hung out on Sunday @ Starbucks and planned our next time out. I won't make it so far and few between, promised on my twins!

Back in school and man does it take a lot of devotion. It's killin my slacker ass! Too many lectures & hot boy's.

Was offered a ticket to the Chili peppers concert on the 25th, not sure whats up with that yet...

As for working out--Still going strong. I did 2 miles today and I loved every minute of it. Now that I'm back in the groove I'm not going to give it up. I want my hot bod back. "I be up in the gym working on my fitness, he's my witness." I can't get that song out of my head!

The Lexapro is starting to work. It's day eight and I'm socializing, being physically active, and allowing myself time for myself outside of my family.

I think it's time I took a little vacation for myself...perhaps a weekend getaway? Any suggestions?

I will have a man in this sea of boys on Valentine's day this year! I don't know if you've heard but this is the year of Amaya ;)

T--I want details on all the sexy senorita's! Happy birfday ;)
Rick--I'm getting better. Not avoiding you, just been busy. Lets get a drink and catch up!

Until next time, America!

Recap

-Pretty uneventful. Friday night was very uncomfortable and i don't care to discuss it!
Saturday, sick but was convinced to join my fam for dinner because Emma made me. I was home and in bed by 9, had the best sleep of my life and woke up feeling refreshed. I slept off my fever.
-I've been told that we had 75 degree weather on saturday. I don't recall. I was freezing, due to the fucking fever.
-Went to church and then spent time with my grandma. She is the sweetest lady I know. She told me everything I needed to hear. She's very supportive and I know I can count on her when I need to. We agreed that we would be spending more of '07 together. I'm looking forward to next Sunday's visit. She's so intelligent and is so wise...I want to be just like her when I grow up. "Because we love so deeply and we love so passionately we're the ones that get hurt. But we have to take the rain to see the rainbow."
-Did laundry
-Grocery shopped
-Ice cream with the ladies, Em & Kennedy
-Talked to Carlos...he was once my spanish lover...today he's just Carlos!!! Nothing new to report. We ended it. He's a nice guy, perhaps we'll always be friends.
-I awoke to lots of rain and winds. I'm climbing back into bed :)

Am I looking thin to you?

Size bone is before size 0!
My Goal: Nicole Richie!
"I'm one stomach flu away from being my goal weight!"
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Pre-NYE

I cried all day...all-day... on Friday. Ah, cathartic. Then I went to see the" Persuit of Happyness". I recommened it. (Popcorn was dee-lish.) Then I hit the workout, and fell asleep. I awoke to a 3 am phone call. The T Man was home from a date and it's crazy...he knows when I'm not well. He hears it in my voice. He's dating and having fun with all of his girls and is truly a good listener and always offers good advice. I <3 T. Thanks for the chat.

Today I'm going shopping, again and then dinner with the entire family in DC. Should be awesome. I cleaned my house from top to bottom and my car. I'm a freak!

Sunday night, preparty @ my house and then downtown. Call me for more info! Bring on the Pomegranite Martini's! Yum Yum!

.....And A Merry Christmas it was!

I finally finished my shopping and was able to be with my family in Mclean & Middleburg. It was a lot of fun. I realized that I need to visit more, it's been too long. My mother returns back to work in January and I couldn't be more elated!!! I've put together a list of things that I got for Christmas...if I'm forgetting something...forgive me!


A handmade Jewelry Box
THE Chloe Bag
Nordstrom Gift Cards
Elton John Candles in Fireside
Memoirs of a Geisha DVD
Burberry Toggle Coat
Jeans and sweaters I'll never wear
Red Lobster (my fave)
Coach sunglasses
Estee Lauder Makeup
Tiffany's from Dad
"He's Just Not That Into You" from Becca
Sephora Gift Card
Clinque Happy
Via Repubblica Distressed Leather Bag
US weekly Subscription
And of course the $100 savings bond from Grandma & Grandpa


Any suggestions for New Year's Eve? I'm thinking a party@ my Casa!

And the award goes to...

Jennifer Lopez for best dressed celebrity of 2006 according to Glamour magazine. She is lovely. I, myself, prefer the always stylish, always beautiful Jennifer Anistan. She's a classic. But congrats to Jen Lopez, I ja`dore her!

My friends have arrived! Gigi & Erica are in from California. Deanna is in from VaBeach, Amber also made it as well. I have only talked to these chics...I've come down with a cold and Gigi is super sensitive to germs now, we're not hanging out until thursday night. We're doing cocktails and dinner, then battle of the bands, and then perhaps afterhours at my house. We're having a sleepover and the girls have decided that they want to join my family & I on our annual weekend in NYC to shop! We're sooooo excited. I can't wait for the beautiful windows of Saks, Macy's, Bergdorf's & Bloomingdales!

My brother's fiancee, prematurely gave birth to beautiful babies on Black Friday. She was out shopping and with all the stress of everyone, she went into labor. Had twin girls two hours later. Ava & Abi's lungs were not fully developed when they were born so they are still in ICU until they're healthy enough to come home...we're looking at mid January. They're tiny little blondes with blue eyes....Adorable. Auntie Maya is proud ;)

I've been so busy lately...I found a house and I've fallen in love. I'm nearly 85% sure I'm going to invest. It's so nice! I love it. I'll keep you posted. Besides trying to find ways to spend money, I've decided I'm not working anymore this year! I worked very hard last year and throughout this year. I even worked when I wasn't even supposed to. So, I'm taking some me time.

It's also that time of year again...we have to start adopting our families for Christmas. Last year 90% of all of my friends went out and bought gifts for a family or some kids who won't otherwise have a Christmas. This has been one of my family's many traditions started by my very sweet and very benevolant grandparents. My grandma finds a family through the Salvation Army or Social Services, pays their heating/rent for the month of December, buys them all presents and buys food for the family to have on Christmas and throughout the holidays. Typically she loves getting to know her family and has them over for Christmas at her house and cooks for them. I don't go to that extent. In the years of doing this I have found that the people are sometimes embarrassed and prefer to remain anononymous. So don't feel as if you must invite these strangers over to your house. My grandmother has never met a stranger, so this isn't "odd" for her. I want to encourage all of my friends to join in. Most of us do well and have a nice income. Some of us aren't so lucky. Can you imagine what it would be like to wake up on Christmas morning and not have presents to open? Lets try to eliminate that from happening to anyone! If you have questions I can help you. Just ask. So start adopting, stat!!!

Merry Christmas!

Recap

After a session with my doctor I had an epiphany. Not sure if the results are good or bad...not sure if I'm doing the right thing. It doesn't feel right. I forgot to ask when it was supposed to feel okay. Note to self, ask when it's going to feel better.

Rebecca & I decorated my house throughout. Candles everywhere, lights everywhere...bring on the holidays! My Charlie Brown Christmas tree is adoreable! Isaiah and Chandler have made a handful of the ornaments. Kennedy, Emma & Leanne are going to contribute this year as well.

I spent Saturday shopping. "The Audacity of Hope" by Obama is absolutely fabulous! He's a man of faith. He gives us hope in an otherwise hopeless world. Love it, love it, love it! Needless to say a lot of people on my Christmas list are going to be getting this fabulous read.

Today was a normal tuesday at the crackhead's house. At times I feel sorry for her because she's either "blowing" her money away or sending it up in "smoke." Yes, the lush partied hard this weekend and was really upset @ Becca because she'd rather spend time with her own kids as opposed to being a crackwhore. Call her crazy!

I also did my charity for the week. Together, Becca & I went to the grocery store and bought a family everything they would need for dinner on Thanksgiving, the turkey, oysters, all the trimmings and a bottle of wine. It felt good to be able to give back to someone who wouldn't be able to have dinner otherwise.

I'm helping my mom with Thanksgiving. It's going to be at my house...I can't wait actually...fun times. I invited some friends over because it's just the two of them, my mother makes enough food for an army and we would love the company of our neighbors. And for your dining pleasure...

THE MENU:

For Starters Pumpkintinis
Eggplant dip with toasts
Plate of Fine Cheeses

Main Course

Parmesan Toasts swimming in French Onion Soup
Cranberry Herb Dressing
Virginia Baked Ham slathered in Homemade Chutney
Perfect Sage-Roast Turkey
Grandma's Corn Pudding (with ALL the ingredients)
Brussels Sprouts a la Chandler
Smashed Potatoes with Gravy
"If you insist" Sweet Potatoes with Apples
Popovers..........yes, popovers!

Desserts

Pumpkin Mousse Tart with Vanilla Armagnac Ice Cream on the side
Deep Dish Apple Pie with CCR Coffee

And I can't wait. I'll only gain 10 lbs per serving, but whatev.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Amaya

My fine is $685

What's your fine?

Smoked pot -- $10
Did acid -- $5
Ever had sex at church -- $25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- $40
Had sex with someone on the net -- $25
Had sex for money -- $100
Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- $20
Vandalized something -- $20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Been jumped -- $10
Crossed dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been in love with a stripper -- $20
Kissed some one who's name you didn't know -- $10
Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- $15
Ever drive drunk -- $20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- $50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed and don't remember the night before -- $20
Went skinny dipping -- $5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissed someone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone of the same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other -- $10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- $20
Done oral -- $5
Got oral -- $5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving -- $25
Stole something -- $10
Had sex with someone in jail -- $25
Made a nasty home video -- $15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sex in the wild -- $20
Been in the same room while someone was having sex -- $25
Stole something worth over a hundred dollars -- $20
Had sex with someone 10 years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and you are over 27 -- $25
Been in love with two people or more at the same time -- $50
Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking -- $5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time in jail -- $15
Peed in the pool -- $5
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Done something you regret -- $20
Had sex with your best friend -- $20
Had sex with someone you work with at work -- $25
Had anal sex -- $80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- $25

Total: $685 and who ever said I was cheap?
Tally it up and Title it "MY FINE IS $$

The Election is over...

And I campaigned hard this year. I easily convinced two republicans to vote democratically this election. I think it was the platinum hair that sold 'em :) As the senatorial election has not been called yet, I'm going to take the liberty and I think it's fair to say that Jim Webb is our new jounior senator, much to many of my family members dismay!

While I respect the office of the presidency, I don't respect the commander in chief so much. We don't disagree on every issue, just most! But basically his economics suck, his psuedo-education reform "No Child Left Behind" sucks just as much. Everyone knows that education is near and dear to my heart, to get a student to pass a standards of learning test is easy to do. I feel there needs to be stiffer tests and guidelines in order to graduate highschool. The Iraq war is probably the number one reason most people voted along the democratic party lines this year. In my humble opinion, the course needs a change!

And to all of my lesbian and gay friends, marriage is still going to be between a man and a woman. Color me conservative! I'm going back to the bible on this one...I feel as most people do, our purpose in life is to procreate. Two women and two men 'married' can not serve our purpose.

In predicting the future,I can see Clinton/Obama on the ballot in 2008, No?


:::::IN OTHER NEWS:::::

1. School continues to kick my ass.
2. I'm preparing for Christmas, I've decided that I want a Charlie Brown Christmas tree
3. Isaiah is still an honor student, as is Chandler!
4. Kennedy still loves my moochies, Emma does too!
5. I love him. Does he know it?
6. I'm going to help out my friend Amber with her dance team
7. Faith, Trish, Lisa, Kellie, Michelle, we're all planning a girls slutty night out.
8. Shelley is still a drunk slut. But not the kind my girls and I are.
9. I haven't slept well for days now.
10.I'm seriously considering buying stock in Tampax after this week with aunt flow!
11.I love Victoria's Secret. Even when your bloated you still feel sexy with your budda belly in their lingerie!
12.Daddy told me that he's always going to call me his baby--No surprise. I'm always going to call him Daddy :)

I hate generalizing...

...But for the third time today a man has felt comfortable enough to "adjust" infront of me. It makes me really uneasy and I just don't understand how they can see this as appropiate social behavior. If i ruled the world this would be punishable by stoning! It's just NOT right! I have never seen women rubbing their nipples or scratching their pootie. I feel this should be touched upon in the senatorial debates, I'd like to know where each candidate stands on the issue. I mean women just DON'T do it...you don't see women outlining the cups of their bras with their fingers if they are seeping out, I mean the thought of it is crazy not just because it's pornstar but because it's inappropriate... why do certain men have the bravado to just play around with their member in full-fledged public knowing the affect it has on others???

Just to recap...I lost my cell, I got it back. It felt like an eternity. I'm still trying to remember what we did before cell phones. I realized why my cell was away how much of my life that phone holds. WOW!!! Calendar dates, phone numbers, etc

This was {verbebatum} the phone call I recieved at 5 am on Saturday morning
Ring, Ring, Ring
ME: "T, I'm asleep."
Lady on phone: "Amaya, your number was the first found in this guy's phone. I wanted to call you to tell you that he's enroute to the hospital. We don't know his name. He's passed out drunk, shallow breathing, bleeding from the mouth, just thought you should know."
ME: OHMYGOD! "It's T's phone. Is he okay?" {Stupid question}
LADY OF THE NIGHT: "Don't know. Just wanted you to know."
ME: "His family lives in Northern California, I'm in VA. Is there a number for Mom or Dad in there?"
LADY ON THE PHONE: "We'll check. Goodnight"
ME: "Keep me posted."
END OF CALL

After about two lifetimes I finally got T. He's fine. The bitch was lying supposedly, he was just drunk. So isn't that just about the worst prank you could ever play on anyone? EVER??? Sadistic.

Although I gave away too much of my peanut M&M's, Halloween was fun. No haunted cornfields or houses this year, like the rest of the year was low key. I used to live on the edge...I don't know where I went to...

What are some of your favorite drunken memories??? If we've had some together send them to me and I'll post them here on my blog....unedited :) ::::PROMISE::::

The weather is great, I'm horny...I'm going to go masturbate and then shower. Then go for a walk with Kennedy in God's Country!!! Yep...life is good :)

OHHH didja hear that Bob Barker is hanging up the mic? He's retiring. So sad. I used to watch that show religiously. I'll miss him. I'm wondering...over the years how many of those hot bitches has he banged? I'm sure a lot. Theres nothing better than a showcase showdown ;)

Quotes of the Week

Me: "Kennedy, I love your moochie!"
Kennedy: "You can't love my moochie while I paint!"

Two year old Kennedy letting me know how it is while she's helping me paint. Too cute.

T: "Would you marry him if he proposes?"
Me: "Uhmmmm"
T: "Yes, You would! You would do it just for the pagentry of it!"
Me: "T! Okay. Yes!"

Conversation with T while trying to pretend no one else heard it!

T: "I'm going to invite Crystal to Costa Rica with me"
Me: "We'll go with you."
T: "I don't think she'll go."
Me:"We'll go with you!!!"
T: "Well you have to bring Miss B Haven with you, I'm not going to be a third wheel, I need someone to sleep with."

Me inviting myself to join T on his sexcapade.

Marisa: "I hate my school pictures. My lame school makes us buy them before we can preview them."
Me: "I'm sure they're not that bad."
Marisa: "No! They're horrible. They made me tilt my head to look at the light and asked me to smile. I can't smile like that...I looked like a dog with my tilted head!!!"
Me: Laughing hysterically: "I'm sorry, thats too funny."

Marisa explaining to me why her school pictures suck.

Me: "My thighs hurt"
Becca: "What were you doing?"
Me: "NOTHING! Just Painting"
Becca: "Only you could hurt your thigh muscles while painting with a two year old...so much for asking you to work out with me."

Me on how a woman's work is never done!

Michelle: "I got offered cocaine this weekend."
Me: "Oh no!" Michelle you didn't do it!"
Michelle: "No. I did decline, but went home thinking that what little moral authority I have left is being compromised by vanity. They must think I look like a junkie."
Me: "HAHAHAHAAHAHA" White trash!

Michelle on her uneventful weekend

Golfer: "You're so pleasant and sweet"
Me: "do what i can to be the best at what I do"
Golfer: "To be so young looking you're not snobby.
Me: "It's just fine wine."
Golfer: "I'd like to taste that fine wine."
Me: "This is where I turn into that snob!"

A golfer trying to hit on me.

My grandmother: "Aww, doll baby, how I've missed you"
Me: "I've missed you too."
Grandma: "Are you eating?"
Me: "No, I've gone on a hunger strike until you come back"
Grandma: "Nooo. I know better than that by the way you're filling out your jeans!"
Me: "Could you have waited until the dr's left the room?"
Grandma: "They can see too, honey."

Me and how much I really missed grandma!!!

FYI

I've decided that my blog needs a makeover, stat!!!

I'm trying to come up with layouts that I like...so far, nothing! School has sucked the creative juices out of me.

Any suggestions? Anything you would like to see in my blog?

I need ideas.

Changes coming soon!

I am delicious!

So I've been told ;) Actually I just gave my hair a drink of Coconut Milk and Orchids, bathed my body in Pumpkin and drenched my skin in Pecan pie. I am quite scrumptious right now. I just got out of my hour long bath, poured a glass of Barboursville Merlot white lounging in my pale PINK V's Secret jammies and a black cami. It's been a while since I've been this relaxed. I've accomplished quite a bit today. Painted, redecorated my TV/Living Room. Made a healthy dinner of chicken in garlic and some herbs from my mother and the produce market I went to on Saturday. I managed to pay bills, return phone calls and watch a bit of tv. Monday's I'm generally at school, today I didn't make it!!!

Tonight there was some snow showers. Autumn is upon us. I tend to sleep later and go to bed earlier now...the time change next week will benefit my lazy ass enough to get up and go to school, the school that is costing my ass so much I need a second job! Sheesh.

Dad is doing well. We're all doing well. I'm going to be an aunt in February...my brother is having twins :) I'm naming them too, Cohen and Caroline. Yes...I like those too!

After my cousin's very cold wedding in the woods, my girl Amber from high school and I caught up with each other and now she wants a coffee date. I'm happy to report that she has aged well. Unlike most of my class.


T is in limbo now thinking and deciding on what to do with his life. He's leaning towards school. I'm trying to encourage him as well. He's almost over whatsherface. This is good for him. He needs to move on.

Speaking of moving on, today is two years since Rod's death. I miss him. I miss my lil Reece Cup and believe it or not, I miss Renee. I hope that one day she can let go of all the anger and 'forgive' me. Lisa told me that Renee did infact call her a few weeks ago and everyone is doing fantastic. I sure hope so. I can still see Rod dance with my lil man and I would just stand at the doorway and watch them bond as a father and son should. He loved Luther Vandross' "Dance with my father" and thats the only song they danced to. Weird, perhaps but tonight I can't stop listening to it. Man....this is still hard. Two years have passed but you never forget. Today has taken me back to that awful windy but warm saturday morning. I remember that long week. I remember the calls, the flowers that were tossed because Renee didn't want them. I remember the smell of the food. I remember the day I went to say goodbye. My entire family was with me. He moved them too. Everyone who knew him, loved him. I was no exception. I've never been able to watch the Kid Rock/Lawrence Fishburn movie since our last time!!! But I always listen to our cd. RIP.

Soo yeah.

Dad's surgery went well. He's getting stronger. When he was released we went to a nice steak dinner. I ate half my body weight in steak and it was good but dayum too filling!!!

I'm coming down with cold. I don't feel too well. It's raining a lot here. Golf has been canceled for 3 days and my job done for the season. I'm so excited. I can concentrate on school now. Life is good.

I'm in love. It's good to be this way. He makes me moist. A lot. Too much info?! He's a good man.

I'll write more later. I'm too busy for this shtuff!!!

Look for a new makeover for my blog in the coming weeks.

Miss me guys!

Headlines are for Newspapers

Okay...

A lot has been going on...too much to write about even. I rarely have the time for my blog anymore. Somethings gotta give :)

Dad is preparing for surgery on friday, grandpa is doing better, school is kicking my ass but overall I'm in a good place right now.

Kennedy makes me smile and her moochies are some of the best :)

My heart is in a good place right now...and I haven't been able to say this in a while, but I'm actually happy!

I'm going to go and make the best of this day by spending some money :)

More blogtime, later.

Oh--Who should Meredith choose? McDreamy or Finn??? I want to know what you think! And why don't I get to read your blog????

A

Domestic me.

Is anyone else obsessed with the cooking network???

I can't get enough...

I'm going to try Emril's Mexican Lasanga...I'll keep you posted.

Fried Tortilla's
Spicy Chicken
Peppers, Mushrooms, Onions
Cheesy hollandaise sauce
monterey jack cheese
diced tomatoes

Baked for 45 minutes

(I'm sure I'm missing a step or ingrediant somewhere in there!!!)

Oh

And did I mention that he makes me smile like no other?

He does.

He's irreplaceable.

And the O's are uhmazing!


Finally, someone to take me dancing on friday and Church on Sunday :)