Forever and a Day

I have been seriously neglecting my blog. I have been super busy with the holidays, which were great! I had a beautiful Christmas with the Warner families and the Graves families. It was a very prosporus Christmas. I always go crazy. Atleast I'm not the only one because my family tends to do the same. I did manage to turn in all of my Salvation Army family's toys and food in on time! I had a beautiful NYE. I have also made NY's resolutions. Hopefully I'll make an attempt at these!!!

With the new year brings a lot of house cleaning at work. I am so organized I can put Bree from DH to shame. I have spent much of the new year at work copying and filing documents. 2005 was a great year for the company. 2006 will crush 2005 though :)

Renee & Reece are moving to Mexico in March. I don't know what to say to that. My mother is going to host a going- away party for her. I'm not sure I want to be there. There is a lot of mixed feelings between us. It has been too long since I've actually seen my Reecee Cup. Do you guys even remember how much I loved my little guy?! Do you remember the lengths I went to for him? Do you remember coming by or calling and finding me at Renee's or at the Park or at a Dr's Appt with my little man??? Do you remember when you would want to hang out and I would have to decline because Reece had the sniffles or he had a fever? Do you remember seeing me buy diapers and clothes and toys for my little guy? Do you remember? I do too. It's still just as difficult. I miss that kid. I know he still remembers me. I know he misses me holding him and telling him how much I loved him. I know he misses me holding him, period! He'll be 2 in June. I know he'll be fine. But the little guy and I formed a bond that you don't forget about even if you're only 1. I know I never will. His uncle Kurt will always take care of him.

I'm sure everyone has heard about the tragedy at the Sago mine in WV. It has been so heart wrenching and there is nothing you can do or say and you don't even know where to start. I pray for peace for the families. I wish I could alleviate any pain that the families are dealing with. Soo many, soo young. I saw a headline that said Heaven has 12 new Angels, that basically brought comfort. When you think about their souls going on to Heaven it brings peace for a second. One Miner even left an hour by hour account. How hard that must have been. I have so much to be thankful for. Shit, we all do. I can't reflect much on this because it tears at my heart.

All is well. More later.

It's the most wonderful time of year!

I am happy to report that I'm done with Christmas shopping. All is done and wrapped :) I think this is the first time that I've actually finished this early!!!

Me and Mom, some friends and my aunt went shopping last night. It was too much fun. I didn't get home until well after midnight. Now I remember why I hated living in Mclean and why I love it here. Everyone is bitter and greedy in Mclean. Here, we're just happy go-lucky's!

I'm admitting that I go overboard with gifts this time of year and now since my parent's aren't paying any of my bills and I have to pay my own I can't drop $500 on each brother/sister/parent/nephew/neice/grandparent!!!! Sure nice things cost an arm and a leg but I have to stop this insanity.

Speaking of insanity...my boy Kenny went overboard this Christmas too. I asked him. Strike that, I told him that I don't need exspensive gifts! He spent way to much on me. I'm the girl with everything and there is nothing in this world that I really need! He knows my weaknesses and went crazy with it. I gave him some small suggestions. Clinque Happy Perfume, anything from Sephora, something small and inexspensive, right? He didn't listen to me! His reasoning is because I spent a little more on him than he did me...WE SHOULD HAVE NEVER DISCCUSSED HOW MUCH MONEY WE SPENT ON EACH OTHER!!! I think he was trying to outdo me!!! I thought that was impossible!

I got him some things that he needed. I got him the Nate Berkus Decorating Book, Titanium Cuff Links from Tiffany's, A Velvet Coat (not by some hot Italian Designer either) some candles, A frame with a very meaningful picture in it and something that belongs to me that he has wanted forever :) I gave in to him!!! I'm sure he's going to love it!!!


My stylist is coming to stay with me for 3 days in January. He adores me! He told me that I'm by far the sweetest person he knows!!! He's married. He's hot but it ain't like that! We're just really great friends. We got coffee yesterday and spent an hour just talking about his accident where he was brutally stabbed, beaten and left for dead in a school yard while leaving a sports bar in October. Every time I think about what happend to him I think of Eric and Zhoumas and it makes me wonder what kind of bastard could have hurt Adil the way they did. So he's coming in mid January. We're going to go skiing, do some hiking and probably just chill. He asked if he could come stay with me because he needs to clear his mind. He's still frightned by what happend to him. It's fucked him up. He's a wonderful guy I still don't know why this had to happen to him.

Everyone should have recieved their Christmas cards from me already...if not...then don't blame me!!! The post office was chaos! I thought I was smart by going during lunch...I was wrong!

Gigi is doing wonderful guys, keep praying!

My bonus was awesome!!! It was more than I was expecting :) Did I tell you that I work for the best company, not to mention the best people ever ;)

Merry Christmas!!!



Amaya

I've been soooooooooo busy that I haven't had time to update my blog! What a shame, right? I rarely have any free time lately between work, shopping, and Christmas I don't have much time for anything!!

I know just about everything I got for Christmas this year already! My family just isn't smart. They should know by now that I know that all gifts wrapped in PINK are mine :) It's one of my favorite colors :) Tiffanys, Cristal, & Cavalli....looks like it's going to be a great Christmas!!

Nothing else to report. All is well. I'm doing well. My family is well. 2005 was a good year. A lot better than 2004. So much drama!!!

Christmas luncheon tommorrow, Party in McLean on Wed night, then it's time to get with the Warner fam then it's on to My fam and then home to the Graves'!!! So much family. You all know I love my family :)

I'm so in love with prego Gwen Stefani's new song "Luxurious"--it's my song!

More later..........

Don't Act Like You're Not Impressed!!!

This time of year gets me so excited! Not to mention that Deb, Gi's mama called me this a.m to tell me that she is infact doing well and Erica, the rock that she is, is doing just fine too. Gigi did develop body acne and is basically a walking blister. The acne is just a reaction to the massive amounts of chemo and radiation. It's clear that this is the worst form of cancer there is. And my girl is soldiering on! She can't eat, no tongue...or it's no longer a real tongue, she has liquids only which is fed through a feeding tube. So it is the toughest, mentally as well as physcially. You do everything through your mouth, talk, eat, breath....She is going to make it. She told me she was. I have faith!

On friday I went to Pier 1 and I found my new tableware and flatware. I got this gourgeous Bamboo charger with Oak sides for a steal @ $25. It's so nice. I chose a mocha plate set with an expresso colored mug. I also got the bread plates, soup bowls and napkins to match. The flatware I got with a "W" on them. It's very nice. My grandmother was pleased when she saw everything yesterday. I decided to go with a snow white table runner as my grandmother suggested because my dining room table is so pretty that I don't want to cover it up. I went with a lovely shade of oatmeal placemats that are velvet. It's beautiful. I'm redoing my kitchen floor. Isaiah cracked it and I demanded that everything be replaced. It's brown and white mixture of colors. My mom's kitchen was just finished. She turned her kitchen into the kitchen at the Little Inn at Washington. Her kitchen is so nice. Every freaking detail right down to the cobalt blue tile! It's afixed with her huge flat screen apple computer to search for recipes and watch CNN while she cooks. It's absolutely amazing. I'll have to take pictures. She has an island sink with a double oven. She really went far out even with the Refrigerator that looks like it's a big pantry door. She's very proud of it. Exspensive but worth it. I don't intend to makeover anything to the extent that she has! My new favorite color is pomegrante red for a dining room. I won't go that far though. It's a lot of red.

So I found this years Christmas card. It's so peaceful and humbling and it just captures so much of how you percieve Christmas and winter. I'm calling it "OLD MAN WINTER". The envelopes are silver lining and they're gorgeous. I must admit I do have great taste!

As far as Christmas decorating goes, I think I'm going to decorate on Saturday the 26th, I took the day off for shopping but I think it's time to start decorating too. I'm still trying to figure out my theme. I bought the tree topper already. It's an Angel praying on one knee with a tiara that lights up. As soon as I saw it I had to buy it. It's lovely and sweet. Reminds me a lot of myself!

I have a huge Christmas list again this year but I love buying for others and it's time to start. We're going shopping after work on black friday. I have to shop for my adopted family from the Salvation Army. I have a family of 5 this year. I agreed to take it on so I can't complain!!! Christian is 6 and wants a bike, Abigail is 7 and loves baby dolls (which little girl doesn't?), Joseph is 12 and wants a 'boombox'!!! I thought that was funny when I saw that. The parents just want food to eat on Christmas. Can you imagine? No. I clearly can't. I can't even imagine that people in our prospourus country go hungry and is worried about food. I'm worried about how the food will be presented on my table. Some people don't even have the food! Wow. Humbling when you think about that. I'm going to encourage everyone to adopt a family this year. Or a child. Don't just put money into the red kettle. Go the the Salvation Army and take on a family. My family has been doing this for years. My grandparents even invite their adopted family over to there house right before the holidays. A lot of times people have refused to come because they're ashamed but the past few years they have came. I'm not saying you should invite strangers into your home but we all are able to say that we do well. We all waste money. We all do contribute a lot to charities but it's Christmas and could you imagine waking up and not having presents on Christmas??? It wouldn't be Christmas. And yes Christmas isn't about gift giving but to the kids it is. And somewhere we'll know on Christmas morning that a kid and his brother and sister all have a present and they have food to eat. To me thats the best gift we can give to ourselves!!! So call the Salvation Army and adopt your child/family today!!!!

I will check up on my friends and I better hear that you all are doing your part! Faith you're excused from this. Brandy and Davy have already bought a lot for their kids.

At work on December 10th. Yes, that means no NYC afterall. I'm having a Christmas party for our employees children. We're going shopping on Dec 2nd to get all the toys. So far, a lot of employees are bringing their kids. This is the first time ever doing this but I think it will be a hit. I've even decided that we need to be in the Christmas Parade. We just have to come up with an idea for a float. The parade is Dec 3rd which is the same day as my cousin Danny's winter wedding, but it's an evening wedding so I can do it all!!! If we can come up with a float idea related to the Caverns. I was brainstorming but perhaps we could have the Holy Night scene taking place in a cave background on a float?! It's going to be hard but it's a start. I'm open to suggestions! I'm almost desperate.

I just popped in my Mariah Carey Christmas CD and I'll be singing O Holy Night all day!

So all is well here in VA. Can you guys believe that I'm cooking for the holidays? Crazy huh?! I've just discovered that cooking is an art and like any art you have to perfect it. I'm cooking a lot more these days. You'd all be impressed!

I'm on my way to the gym now. Muah!

I love this time of year!

Thanksgiving is here! I have a lot to be thankful for. I count my blessings everyday. My family is all doing relatively well. Isaiah will be 9 yrs on Sunday. How can that be?! My coworker Crystal is having a baby shower on Sunday and I'm the hostess! I don't have a gift just yet. I just printed out her registry and everything is pink! I'm not sure I like it...

I'm listening to Gigi's song Free Bird. She and I would sing this all the time. We only knew it because of the Eagles remake. And now I'm listening to the freaking lyrics and it's weirding me out! I'm just now realizing this. I can't wait to get back to LA. It was awesome. Flying sucks but I'm going to get used to it. Thats my girl so I have to go back!

Kenny offered to completely pay for her Black Tie Casino Night that we're hosting at the ballroom @ the Cave for her. He needs the tax write off! I won't let him. He can come and donate though! I'm actually going to his sisters wedding. Thats going to be fun. He's quite a character. I love Kenny.

My boy T Man got into some drama last weekend. My boy had to spend the night in the slammer! He got a DUI. Katie, if you're reading this--It was a breath mint that fucked it up! He actually blew 0.09! And thats just so gay. And speaking of gay, I'm attracted to my friend Bill @ work. He is flaming! He's stunning! Fucking hot. MMMMMmmm! If only he was straight....damn.

He went to my grandmother's Dame's afternoon tea party at Limair with me! I was completely ambushed by my Grandma, She treated me as if I was a trophy! Made me stand up and turn around so everyone can see that I'm as 'pretty as a picture'. It was lame but Bill made it so much fun :) It's weird. I find myself staring at him and ain't it just like me to want something I could never have!!!

I've been slacking with the workouts lately but I insist on hitting it hard in the a.m. back to the treadmill! Oh and My stylist Adil did Angelina's hair at the Hay Adams last week. He said that Brad was not hot and that Angelina is breathtaking. No surprise there. Connor Fux, Actor, starring with Brad in All the King's Men said that he (Brad) had bad BO. Probably something kinky Angelina is into!

Speaking of celebs I don't know if I mentioned that Dave Mathews was at my salon a few weeks ago. He's pretty fat. Too chunky for my taste.

Faith is getting accustomed to living on her own! She hasn't heard from her husband!!! Isn't that awesome?! She's vulrenable and if he just approached her and asked her to reconcile she's as good as gone!!! I know her. She's weak. I intend on keeping her from him. I'm not letting her get back into that messed up thing she called a marriage. Next time she may not make it out alive. She's already seeing this Greek Guy--which is all wrong for her. It's too soon but anything to keep her mind of Danny (husband)

Dr Drew is in Texas for the Holiday. I'm going to Grandma's like every year. It's weird. I still have a text message from Erock on my cell from last Thanksgiving. He was at his Aunt & Uncle's. I need to let it goooooooooo. Anywho....

So shopping on friday will be lots of fun! Whose down? A repeat of last year Mike??? Thats Mike 24, my boy toy that I went to David's wedding with! I need to specify. I actually forget sometimes how many people read this!!!

Desperate housewives are on and I'm getting ready for my favorite show ever!!! Keep in touch people!!! Miss me!


XOXOXOXO,

A

Great News!

Sweeeet November

November has been good to me thus far! I just managed to finish unpacking from my globe trotting. Our trip was amazing. It was great to see my girlfriend Gigi. She promised me that she will be fine. I also promised her that I would be back to LA before Christmas. I did quite a bit of shopping. It was a very good time overall.

Not much to update you on. I've never been more busier. I've met some interesting guys and dating keeps me busy.

I'm still in love with Grey's Anatomy. It's awesome. Ever watch it? It's on Sunday nights on ABC.

I'm back at work, filling in for my uncle on a needed basis. Everyone knows that he's in the reserves and he was called up. It's my duty to help out when I'm needed.

I am completely redoing my bedroom. And my kitchen. I get bored easy. It's time to make a change.

All is well. Isaiah made the honor roll. His birthday is on the 28th. Can you guys believe that he's 9 friggin years old???? Me neither!

Dad is good. Emma & Kennedy & Chan & Matty are all doing well.

I'm tired and I need to get to bed. I'm a high roller!!!


God Bless & God Keep

A

My Gigi

On Sunday after having too much fun with friends and family on the anniversary of my friend Roderick's death, I got some horrible news about my girl Gigi.

It turns out that she's no longer responding to the Chemo and the cancer has spread from her lymphnodes to everywhere. And she's not doing well. What I actually heard was she probably won't make it. How the hell do you deal with this?

She's too young and I'm mad. And I'm not losing my girl. Mom, Haven Becca and I are flying out to LA within a few weeks. I want to see her. I didn't initially because I deny things to myself at times and I basically didnt want to face it. Now I have to. Thats if I want to see her alive. And Mom told me that she may need to see some of her friends to start getting better.

Gigi & I were great friends and Haven & Erika were friends too. We just all got along so well. We had the best fun in highschool and I refuse to just accept that she's not going to make it. We can send men to the moon and yet we have no cure for cancer. Some things will never make sense to me.

I spent my Sunday night crying myself to sleep because I can't watch another friend just pass.

In other news:

Everyone knows that my uncle John got called up. He's in the Reserves and he has to be at the Pentagon for 6 months to "FIGHT THE WAR ON BIOTERRORISM" and then he's on to Irag for 1-2 years. He recentley proposed that I stay on board during our winter months to help keep operations running smoothly and efficiently since he won't be there. I told him that I couldn't commit 40 hours a week, but I'm more than willing to be available atleast when someone needs me and something comes up. I think that is good for now. I'll probably do more as I'm needed. Her understood. He also told me how I'm now a great asset to the company :) Yay! I think I need a raise :) Whats another 20 G's among a family with an empire ;) We are Virginia Royalty, right John ??!!

My brother has successfully retired the crutches and the cane. He's walking well and he's doing better. Mom has been ill a lot lately. I worry about her. Dad sees his dr on the 28th to prepare for the surgery. Thats going to be all kinds of fun.

This picture was taken on Sunday of the Diaper Posse at my Great Grandmas :)
From left to right:
Chan da man, Seth, Kennedy, Nate, Emma with the corkscrew curls




Did I mention that it's been raining all month here?! I think I need to get back to bed :)

You Know You're From Virginia When...

you know you are from virginia....

You have at least two friends who have no idea what their relatives do...because its "top secret" government work

Most of your senior class went to Longwood, Mason, JMU, Tech, VCU or UVA

When people ask where you're from, you tell them DC because its easier to explain

You've never told someone you're from Virginia without putting "northern," "central," or "southern" in front of it (See above.)

It's not actually tailgating unless your bumper is touching the car in front of you.You know yellow light means at least 5 more cars can get through. (Yeah, man...at least. Probably also happens everywhere else.) A red light means 2 more can.

You actually know what the black boxes at stoplights are for.

Despite the fact that Virginia fought for the south in the Civil War, you are not, under any circumstances, a "southerner"

You are amused by visiting relatives who are actually excited to see Washington, DC

You took a field trip to Williamsburg as a kid

You are amazed when you go out of town and the people at McDonalds speak English

You or someone in your family has a Smart Tag

An inch of snow and you miss 3 days of school

All the potholes just add a little excitement to your driving experience


Crown Victoria = undercover cop


Subway is a fast food place. The transportation system is known as Metro, and only Metro.

They just tore down the old farm house across the street and put 12 new McMansions in its place

For the cost of your house, you could own a small town in Iowa

If you stay on the same road long enough, it will eventually have three new names.


You have to dial the area code to call your neighbor

"Vacation" means spending a day at King's Dominion or Busch Gardens.

"Going to the River" means any stream with water.

You have never been served tea without the waitress asking "sweet or unsweetened?

"Your favorite past time is telling West Virginia jokes.

"Going to the beach" means anywhere from Ocean City to Virginia Beach to Myrtle Beach.

You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Virginia.

Seems Like Just Yesterday

Here it is upon us 1 year since Roderick's been gone. I miss him so much. I miss his smile that just melted me. I miss him in his pajamas playing with Reece. I remember how shy I was and I wanted Reece to sleep in his room instead of in his cradle in Renee & Roderick's room! I remember our last conversation. I remember the day I said goodbye. I remember how hard that was. Rod & I always had the most fun. We always loved making fun of crazy Renee. Rod was the guy that you went to with all of your dilemmas. He was the pyschologist of our circle and he taught us a lot about ourselves. He even told us when we screwed up!!! Now our circle has been broken and it can't be fixed.

Renee and I don't talk like we once did. I was there for her during Reece's birth, during his Baptism, during Roderick's accident, death and now its as if we're nothing. I miss Rod. I miss Reece. I miss Renee.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today


I miss my Rod.

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And then this one time...

Can you believe that I was so bored today that I cooked??? Nobody can! I made Eggplant Parmesan and daddy even stayed to eat! I'm well on my way to becoming the next Martha Stewart. I was pleased. It turned out well.

Yesterday was horrible. Becca & I were shopping when Ian-Bradley called her cell to tell her that the school nurse @ Chandler's school said that Chandler was not 'acting like himself' and that he was complaining of a sore throat. Becca & I left Linens N Things where we were going nuts of the new Nate Berkus line which is now on my new Christmas wish list :) We finally got to my brothers and Chandler was throwing up and we drove him to the ER where he was examined and the dr's feared the worst as did we. Miningitis. There was a note sent home to Becca from his teacher alerting us of the break out in a nearby school. So we were scared. And because of all of the nuero problems he's had in the past we always feared this fatal crap. After an MRI & a Brain Scan and sitting in the hospital not knowing anything for a total of 12 hours the doctor told us that he just has a stomach bug and there was no trace of the Fatal shit. We were relieved!!! He came home and was hungry. He was even talking and demanding to sleep in his new VOTE FOR PEDRO tee shirt that he's obsessing over these days. I secretly allowed him to watch Napolean Dynamite with me and now he's loving it. I bribed him lastnight. If he could eat an entire bowl of chocolate icecream (2 scoops) I would buy him the Napolean Dynamite dvd for Christmas. It's on! Chan-da-man ate the entire bowl! No throwing up! No fever today and we've been lounging in our jammies and I've had to dance for him even on the coffee table to MTV!!! The kid is a rock star and we're going to be famous :)

Andrew broke his foot playing kickball!!! Who still plays kickball?! Thats Andrew with the glasses not Dr. Drew.

Grant, Trish, Becca, Ian-Bradley, Courtney and I are going to the 49er's & Skins game on the 23rd. Which will be 1 year that my boy Roderick's been gone. Fuck. I miss him. I wish it got easier, but it doesn't. The same with my brother Brent. I just wished one morning, one day I would just wake up and not cry over them. I wish. I love them so much. I get scared when I have to think about the 23rd. I start to cry because that awful day is still fresh and I still remember everything. I just wish I didn't. I'm good @ blocking bad things out of my mind but this is so much I just can't fucking deal with it. I keep telling myself that life goes on...time rolls on, but I miss them. What about Reece? I got to quit this shit. My therapist tells me that it will all become more bareable....I'm just waiting... If they only knew how much I missed them.

Daddy is doing good. Missy isn't. My girl Missy was diagnosed with Lupus yesterday. And the dr called her this am to tell her she's diabetic too. Poor girl. I feel so bad for her. We need to help her. I just wish I knew how. Any ideas?

My parents are back from Alaska. They loved it.

Faith is now seeing a doctor who is going to help her get out of the marriage. He is also her husbands doctor and he told her that he was 'a strange one'. Hopefully she will listen to the voice of reason this time. Strangely enough, I do have a bit of hope.

My girl Brandy is pregnant. I'm the Godmother!!! Yay!

As for my dating life...I've been on 2 dates this past week and they were good. I'm just not looking for that right now. Don't ask. I'm just bored. Could I just meet one that interests me for longer than 1 dinner and 3 drinks? Is that too much to ask? You guys have to spice it up a bit. Give me some mystery. Don't dazzle me with the good looks, baffle me with the bullshit! Leave me wanting more! And dont blow up my phone either. Thats boring.

Going to the gym before the moon turns to rust.

KISSES!

Amaya

It's Raining Men!

Not really but it's a good gay song! It is raining a lot here, two days non-stop. We closed the course yesterday because @ 2 pm three holes were underwater. I'm sure today they drowned!

Nick is so hot. Thats all I'm going to say about that. I like. A lot.

Faith had to cancel plans yet again. Her husband is so pyschotic. He asked her yesterday how it would feel if she never woke up!!! How the hell is she supposed to know? Clearly the guy is phucking nuts.

I stayed home lastnight. I didn't do jack. We ordered Chinese and cheesecake and stayed in & watched dvds. I ended up falling asleep early. Becca woke me up @ 7 this morning to go with her to her friend Shelly's house to get ready for an open house there. She's selling her home for $500,000. It's nice but I'm not interested.

We looked @ her pictures and talked shit about everyone from our old high school! The lesbian Cheney girl, the whores, etc... We broke out the cheap White Zinfindel and started drinking and talking drama. Then we got into the Bourbon and I had to quit! That she is too much for me. We started to get tipsy so we decided Shelly needed pumpkins! We went to this Orchard and got pumpkins and mums. She decided that she wanted to buy flowers and pumpkins for her friend Andy. I had to stop her. Purple mums = a fag. Yellow mums is okay!!! We had a lot of fun in the apple orchard picking Apples too :) Then we went to the Apple Valley Bakery which made the Washingtonian magazine and had the best Coffee cake and Sumatra coffee. It was a lot of fun. We finally managed to get back home and then I fell asleep!

My parents came out and wanted us to go to dinner. I sent everyone on their merry way and slept my buzz off. I'm so bored right now. It's 8:30 and I'm bored out of my mind. I just may call and invite Nick or Andrew or Zac or Dash or whoever the fuck I want over!!! Nah, I'm not. That would be too much work & maintence and i'm lounging in my pajama jammy jams with a severe case of cabin fever.

Ya know...The sound of the rain is great background music to lots of lovemaking!!!!

I just realized, I'm lonely. Damn.

I'm sad.

Bleh!

My own pity party

I'm still sick. I don't feel well @ all. I should see the dr. Dr Drew thinks I have the avaian flu...just kidding. Yikes! I shouldn't say that. It's far from funny. I'm scared of that shit.

Taylor Behl's body was found in Mathews County near the Cheasepeake behind a barn in a shallow grave. Turns out they found the farm through a photograph that the satanic fucking bastard took of the place. The odor was overwhelming and the FBI knew that her body was there as soon as they arrived--All of that from FOX news. I can't even wrap my mind around a punishment that would probably be harsh enough for this pyschopath.

Speaking of which Becca may be dealing with one. Mr. Baker. She's met him twice @ work. He told her that shes the only woman besides his wife that he has ever looked @ in a loving way. He told her that she was too beautiful and it kills him to look @ her. She is scared. Her boss told her that Mr. Baker was a strange man and he assured her that it would never happen again. I've always said we were loser magnets.

Holy shit! PYSCHO MAN AGAIN! Tuesday evening Becca, Emma & I were having dinner @ this restaraunt 30 mins from my house. This weirdo was sitting 4 tables behind Becca and 4 tables in front of me....The restaurant wasn't overfilled. About 5-10 other people in the dining room along with us. WEIRDO started talking aloud to the waitress wanting to know what was the ingrediants in his meal!! DUMB. He was telling her how great it was and he loved it, blah blah blah. Because he was talking so loud Emma turned around and was staring @ him because he was stupid! And out of nowhere, really loud--PEEK A BOO! PEEK A BOO!! PEEK A BOO!!! So loud and retarded. Emma looked at us as if asking WTF is that?! PEEK A BOO! PEEK A BOO PEEK A BOO!! Becca & I just started laughing because we have never seen someone do that to strangers in a restaurant in front other guests!!! We found it funny. At first. Then he wouldn't stop. It was annoying the other guests too. After about 20 mins of PEEK A BOO Emma started ignoring him and she probably sensed he was a weirdo. The hostess seated a couple in front of me, behind Becca to break up the one man game of PEEK A BOO. He said to the couple-ver betam-"I may have to ask you to find another table because me and the lady (he was referring to Emma) are having a game of Peek A Boo. And I heard on the radio that if you play you will stay young and I'm playing Peek A Boo". We couldn't believe our ears!!! So we got the check and the Manager came over and told us that he was going to pay for our check because he knew that the guest was bothering us and we really didn't have a nice dinner as nobody finished their meals or drinks! Nice gesture. Then WEIRDO asked for his check and the manager followed us to the door and waited outside as we left the parking lot. WEIRDO followed us to Barnes & Noble!!! We told the mall security and they said they'll keep an eye out on him. We wanted to leave so the B & N loss prevention guy said that he was in the Children's section sitting on the train and they were going to watch the weird bastard. I'm wondering why is it us that always come in contact with the weird mohuckers? Why are we magnets?

Becca & I agreed that he was definetly a child molester. He was so sick. His teeth were yellow. He never brushed them and he was wearing thick black glasses from the 60's. Horrible looking fat guy. Spooky. I couldn't sleep much after that.

Emma shopping with us :)



She's thinking "I make these look good"

Showing me what she thinks of the destressed jeans @ Express:



"DO THESE MAKE MY BUTT LOOK BIG, MINI?"



She's so smart :) She's such a girly girl. She bought a black leather handbag with faux fur on it, she's becoming her own woman!!!

I miss him.

Mr Navy


He got away.

Damn hes hot.

PS The sex was good.

Allow me

To introduce to you....

Mr & Mrs Brokeass :)

Daaaasssshhhh

From Dash: So special.....I feel like you are a unique person Amaya...is that true? I mean I've never seen anyone so self-possessed and strong...and sensually attractive.

I think he's hitting on me ;)

Honestly, he sees me. He's hot. He just may get it :)

Me

I'm sick. I have a cold that will not go away. I haven't felt well in days. I'm still working though. Such a trooper :)

Dad has to have surgery. I just learned that this a.m. Thats a big shocker.

I have lots of work to do but don't feel like doing it.

Bleh...

It's Monday night and I'm sick with a cold. So much has happened within the past 72 hours I figured I should share it...

1. Adam called me on Sunday just to tell me that he misses me & can't help but think of me when he should be concentrating on "Heather"! Thats his fiancee. They're supposed to get married July 3, 2006. He wants to see me soon. I havent seen him since Roderick died nearly a year ago. He's still the best of the best.

2. Brokeass Mike got married & moved to Seattle! How retarded is that? He always wanted us to do that. I could never. He's such a party boy it's disgusting. She isn't ugly either. Her name is Marci. I'm sure they're having fun, but will it last. He's a committment phobe! I can't believe he got rid of Pyscho Britney. Whatever the case may be, I know he reads this so I wish him all the best. Oh p.s. He's unemployed!!!

3. Married Mike found out that his wife is cheating on him with an older man who probably has more money than he has. Shame. Karma is a bitch.

4. Kenny got a job promotion and moved into a hot place on the beach!!! He's doing so well. I'm probably most proudest of him. He is my baby. <3 my Kenny. Can't wait to see him in NYC.

5. Dr. Chang is currently dating other girls. Ashley a fashion student, 21 & Alissa a dentist, 25 He's doing well too.

6. Grant is so sweet too. He's no longer the master of his domain!!!
7. Charles just broke up with the girlfriend. He failed to mention he had one.

8. Andrew the eyeglass wearing hottie will be here on the 7th. MMmmm.

9. Faith is having problems in her marriage still. She won't leave the fucking bastard. He's making her crazy.

10. Trish had surgery and is doing well.

11. Haven & Becca is doing well.
12. I'm sick. Because of the weather change I have a sore throat & earache!
13. Dash is producing a commercial in Baltimore and wants to hang out. He just wants sex.

14. Can't wait to see Mark & Pierre this weekend. Soooooooooooo hot!

15. Work is good. I'm becoming shy. I get embarrassed easily. Long story.



Take care everybody & email me :)

I won't be updating my journal much during the month of October it's a busy work month for me!

Road trip Nov. 2nd :) Can't hardly wait!!!


Muah Muah Muah!!!


PS--T, I hope you don't mind that I lied to Eric about you & me doing the nasty. I had to hurt him some way!!!

Weirdest thing!

So I met Zac yesterday... Zac is 28, brown hair, blue eyes, great looking guy. We didn't talk that much because of the circumstances--I'll explain that another time. Seems like he would be a lot of fun. I didn't give him my phone number though.

Nick is 25. Nick is Italian. Nick is goregous. Nick has a lot of girls! He got my phone number about 2 weeks ago, he's from Bethesda. We haven't been able to hang out because our schedules conflict. He's leaving town tommorrow for a bachelor party.

I recieved an email from Nick yesterday! He wanted to let me know that ZAC was his boy!!! How freaking crazy is that?!

Just Amaya's luck! And I know the golden rule--BROS BEFORE HOS & Chicks before dicks!!!

Nick is really anxious to hang out now though...I have to admit, this is all pretty petty but I can't wait to see how this all turns out :)

I have a date tommorrow night--can't wait!

What a weekend!

My week started off very boring, the typical weekday shit--catching up on all the weeks shit, dinners @ home, watching dvds....drinking a glass of wine before bed, painting my toes, the norm. Friday evening I was back in Chicago to spend the weekend with Eric. I love this guy! He picked me up @ O'hare and we went back to his place. We both agreed that our painting was beautiful. He wants to keep it over his bed because 'his goddess of lovemaking' painted it with him.

So he made me a cosmo and we sat on the rooftop just catching up and it felt like forever since I had seen him. Being with him and smelling his skin and feeling his embrace felt like home to me. He couldn't keep his hands off of me. He couldn't get enough of me!!! He took my martini and poured some on my tit and teasingly licked it off. Our clothes were off in seconds after that and we were fucking the only way we know how--fast, rough, and hard on his rooftop. All the noise from the windy city made it even that much better.

Saturday was awesome. we went to brunch then on to Michigan Avenue for shopping. He & picked out the perfect "fuck me" shoes. I'm stoked about them. Strappy, black and 4 inch heels!

So Nick called and his ass wanted to party. And thats exactly what we did! We went downtown to the Goldcoast. Along the way we stopped by Moda & Level for drinks. Chicago guys love a southern girl! I guess thats why I always stick with the Windy City boys. After several cocktails, Eric and I hailed a cab and we were practically fucking in the cab. We got to his front door sans my thongs and I think he ruined the zipper on my new dress trying to rip it off of me. The man practically broke me in two! He's an animal in bed and pulling his hair only made him fuck me harder!!!

It was a great weekend and after having sex @ Ohare 2 times before my flight we vowed that next time wouldn't be so far away.

Eric, thanks for a fun weekend. Thanks for the shopping, the hospitality and most of all, thanks for the Orgasms!

See you soon!