Seems Like Just Yesterday

Here it is upon us 1 year since Roderick's been gone. I miss him so much. I miss his smile that just melted me. I miss him in his pajamas playing with Reece. I remember how shy I was and I wanted Reece to sleep in his room instead of in his cradle in Renee & Roderick's room! I remember our last conversation. I remember the day I said goodbye. I remember how hard that was. Rod & I always had the most fun. We always loved making fun of crazy Renee. Rod was the guy that you went to with all of your dilemmas. He was the pyschologist of our circle and he taught us a lot about ourselves. He even told us when we screwed up!!! Now our circle has been broken and it can't be fixed.

Renee and I don't talk like we once did. I was there for her during Reece's birth, during his Baptism, during Roderick's accident, death and now its as if we're nothing. I miss Rod. I miss Reece. I miss Renee.

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin' in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone

It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the hell that I been through
Just knowin' no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today


I miss my Rod.

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