I can't sleep. I'm so numb right now. Roderick is dead. How does any of this shit make sense? He was on his way home from working a 16 hour shift, driving 2 hours home to be with his baby & Renee. He hit a small tree. His dad said the tree was small. He was only 15 miles from home. The EMT's got his heart beat back once. Oh dear God. He shouldn't have died. This never should have happened. We just hung out on Monday and again on Tuesday for a while. We had such a good conversation. He's so smart.
This is so crazy. I don't know what to do with myself. I need answers because this really shouldn't have happened. We all needed him for a while longer. There was no warning. Nothing.
Renee said on her desk, friday, she has a picture of Rod & Reece together and she just kept touching Rod's face and she said she's never done anything like that. Life is so weird. Reece senses something is wrong because he wouldn't sleep yesterday. Not even for me. This child loved his daddy so much. Reece giggled outloud with Roderick. The baby would smile for hours with his daddy. Roderick will never get to see his child again.
Such a freaking tragedy. I'm so angry.
