I have to admit my mother and I haven't always been the best of friends...we have issues. We don't see eye to eye on a lot of things. We discussed a lot of my problems lastnight, my incident in May, the many obstacles that I've overcame and before we ended our nearly 2 hour conversation she told me that I inspire her because I'm so strong. For her to tell me that meant a lot. I feel like the weakest link at times. I feel like I've dealt with a lot that most people my age never see. I think it opened a window for my mother and I. This morning I checked my email and she had already sent me the following:
Amaya baby I very much enjoyed the heart to heart that you and I had. I know that you are not perfect and you have some imperfections which makes you my Amaya. I love your strength, your wisdom and your inner and outer beauty radiate in everything that you do. It shows in your dedication to the family with your job! I'm humbled at times because you are to me, just perfect like the rest of my babies. You are all flawless. Your father and I will always be a part of your support group. We are always just a phone call or drive away. Make sure you eat your carbs baby. You can not function with out them. Here is the piece that I was telling you about last night. Read it and obey it. My orders!
Mommy
Everything Happens for a Reason...
Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...
to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very momentthat they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will poweror heart.
Everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight,flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from.
In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heartand eyes to little things.
Make every day count.
Appreciate everything thatyou possibly can, for you may never experience it again.
Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen.
Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.
Hold yourhead up because you have every right to.
Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you.
Create your own life and then go out and live it.
