Eric and I have been done for nearly two weeks now. Being the too kind person that I am, I contacted him via email and phone to see if he basically needed any help getting around in unfamiliar territory. Afterall he's bringing all of his boys now and yes, we know the woman loving man is bringing girls too! I swallowed my pride and called him. What the fuck is wrong with me. I've left two messages. I must be crazy. Or just a glutton for punishment. I guess it's time I just move on. With that said...
I do have more important things to vent about...starting with my brother. He went to physical therapy on Tuesday and they sent him to get a sonagram right away because of a swollen, red, warm to the touch knot on his knee. They confirmed what his therapist feared, he had a blood clot! He was admitted and by Wednesday evening the clot had moved from his knee to his thigh and this morning it was still in his abdomen which is DANGEROUS. Dr's are worried. He's on blood thinners and he can't even move. He can't shower, my mother has to give him a sponge bath and he can't get angry or excited at anything. He's in good spirits and says that everything is fine....And IT BETTER BE! This morning my dad went into surgery. My brother isn't aware though because it could make him upset....Worried even. So I have to go and stay with my brother while Mom and Becca and Haven and Jordan all rotate hospitals. This is too much shit to deal with. I think I'm taking the next shuttle to the nearest planet!!!
I've decided that it's time for a change. I'm never happy in one setting for long anyway. I'm thinking of purchasing a new house in the Great Falls area of NOVA. I'm looking at a 4 bedroom, 4 bathroom on a golf course. It's absolutely breathtaking. I've been thinking about chopping off the hair again...what do you think? Just shoulder length. Nothing TOO drastic. It would be a great length by the time summer gets here and it's time for a change. You'd think I was running for an office. I'll quit.
So Eric and the boys are in town tonight. Should be fun for them. In my email I told him some places he should go. Hopefully he'll trust me. I wouldn't lead astray.
Married Mike keeps calling my cell. He's must sense that I'm fucking vulrenable as all hell. He knows me too well. He's always had a sick six sense when it came to me. He always knew. I think it's about time I change my phone numbers. I have to sever ties and if I cut out communication it would be a good start!!!
Look at me. This entire post has been about the men! Most have betrayed me. I guess I'll just continue loving my brothers and my father. I know they'll never hurt me, only protect me.
Eric, if you read this....I have tried calling you 4 times now, even leaving messages and emails. I guess you're too busy!!! Ha ha. Point taken. So I'm writing you off right now. I don't want anymore emails about how much you love me and we could make things work....I've tried too many times. Best of luck.
Amaya
