Please tell me why I even bother. Please give me the strength to realize that this guy truly is a freaking jerk! Please help me stay away from him. I don't need him in my life so please help me to stop trying to contact him!!! Please. I was once this girl with pride that would never call a guy. Where the hell is she??? He makes me weak, but you can make me strong and I'm putting all of this in YOUR hands.
Amaya
So Eric is in town with his boys and I've tried contacting him now not once, twice, four, but 6 or more times! He doesn't answer his phone and he doesn't call me back. I got the hint but everytime I think about it, it pisses me off. I want to just go to his hotel room and slap his face. FUCK. Does he know who the fuck I am? And why I bother, I don't know. I think I need a wake up call. He's not accpeting my calls nor is he responding to text messages. Am I really this desperate? For God's sake, he fucked me over. Why am I stressing and why am I begging for an invite from him to just hang out and say hi? I'm making myself upset by trying too hard. I know that he's a jerk and God forbid I should ever talk to him again. I'm going back to the hospital. Perhaps I'll make myself available tonight. NO. FUCK NO I WON"T. This guy has been a complete waste of my time and look at me, I don't think i've batted my eyelashes this much in forever!!!!! Stress! I'm giving up on men. Back to see my brother.
