Unsure
Should just say fuck it
A low low
The worst of it's kind
Never
Again
The End.
I'm not going to write about my weekend because it was great and right now my heart isn't in the right place.
Lesson of the day: Follow your heart!!!
Monday, March 12, 2007
Friday, March 09, 2007
sex in the everyday
I can find everyday things to be very sexy. I can find sex in the everyday. Some are obvious, others not so much.
I use to think the sexiest thing in the world was to catch a glimmer of a man's boxer shorts over the top of his jeans. Just enough to see what color/patteren they were. nothing more than a couple hair widths of a glimmer. Then the whole fashion trend of pants around a man's knees started. ruined the whole thing. Now it's the man rubbing his belly nonchalantly that does it.
A man rubbing his belly with his shirt raised so I can see his happy trail, yummy.
Candles melting/burning. To be in a room filled with only candlelight...mmm nice.
Moonlight. Enough said.
Full moon on a cloudless night.
Smells: The smell of a man, the scent of his cologne, the scent of his sweat, the scent of his soap on his skin after a shower.
A nice tailored suit.
Boxing. I love boxing. So primal. so sweaty. so hot. so wet.
music: either being in a dance club (gay dance club) with a great DJ and a heavy beat. God, you can smell the sex. If a man loves the old standards as much as I do, then you've got me. Sinatra, Billie, Ella, Otis, Sam, Elvis..and on and on..
humor. A man's gotta make me laugh. Have a witty come back, sarcasm (but not biting or mean) and get my humor (which is witty and sarcastic) gotta keep me laughing then we can get through anything.
Confidence, but not cockiness. Very sexy.
Teeth, lips and eyebrows. Some people are into asses, legs, arms. Me? it's lips, teeth and eyebrows. The teeth should be some shade of white. The lips, nice and full or a nice combo with the teeth. Eyebrows, there should be two. They are divorced and not speaking to one another. At the very least they are seperated.
white cotton sheets. Especially after sex and you're both naked and lieing together half covered and talking.
conversation. This is huge. If you can give me the mind fuck then forget about the other stuff it can be worked out. Give me conversation. This is true intimacy.
last phone call of the day. where you're lieing in bed talking for hours on the phone and learning about each other
a great dinner.
a sexy bra and panties. Especially when I'm the only one who knows what I have on under my work clothes
rain/thunderstorm. the smell of an approaching thunderstorm. Being caught in the rain.
summer. all hot and sweaty. the air is thick with humidity. Swimming in the heat of the night alone.
great fuck me shoes
having a man lay between my legs and wrapping my legs around him. (now I'm sure you all have another visual, but I am actually refering to when we are in bed or on a couch and not facing one another and his back is resting against my chest and I have him wrapped up between my legs and I am rubbing/playing with his head/hair
touching. When a person isn't afraid to show affection and receive affection in public or otherwise. Sitting at a bar and touching my leg ect. Not to be confused with the tasteless make-out session in public.
intelligence. being well read. great conversationalist. (told you it was a biggie) great at debating (not argueing)
when I am so connected with someone that there can be a room full of people, but neither one of us are aware of anyone else, but each other. There is no one else, but us. So very hot and sexy.
....tell me yours
I use to think the sexiest thing in the world was to catch a glimmer of a man's boxer shorts over the top of his jeans. Just enough to see what color/patteren they were. nothing more than a couple hair widths of a glimmer. Then the whole fashion trend of pants around a man's knees started. ruined the whole thing. Now it's the man rubbing his belly nonchalantly that does it.
A man rubbing his belly with his shirt raised so I can see his happy trail, yummy.
Candles melting/burning. To be in a room filled with only candlelight...mmm nice.
Moonlight. Enough said.
Full moon on a cloudless night.
Smells: The smell of a man, the scent of his cologne, the scent of his sweat, the scent of his soap on his skin after a shower.
A nice tailored suit.
Boxing. I love boxing. So primal. so sweaty. so hot. so wet.
music: either being in a dance club (gay dance club) with a great DJ and a heavy beat. God, you can smell the sex. If a man loves the old standards as much as I do, then you've got me. Sinatra, Billie, Ella, Otis, Sam, Elvis..and on and on..
humor. A man's gotta make me laugh. Have a witty come back, sarcasm (but not biting or mean) and get my humor (which is witty and sarcastic) gotta keep me laughing then we can get through anything.
Confidence, but not cockiness. Very sexy.
Teeth, lips and eyebrows. Some people are into asses, legs, arms. Me? it's lips, teeth and eyebrows. The teeth should be some shade of white. The lips, nice and full or a nice combo with the teeth. Eyebrows, there should be two. They are divorced and not speaking to one another. At the very least they are seperated.
white cotton sheets. Especially after sex and you're both naked and lieing together half covered and talking.
conversation. This is huge. If you can give me the mind fuck then forget about the other stuff it can be worked out. Give me conversation. This is true intimacy.
last phone call of the day. where you're lieing in bed talking for hours on the phone and learning about each other
a great dinner.
a sexy bra and panties. Especially when I'm the only one who knows what I have on under my work clothes
rain/thunderstorm. the smell of an approaching thunderstorm. Being caught in the rain.
summer. all hot and sweaty. the air is thick with humidity. Swimming in the heat of the night alone.
great fuck me shoes
having a man lay between my legs and wrapping my legs around him. (now I'm sure you all have another visual, but I am actually refering to when we are in bed or on a couch and not facing one another and his back is resting against my chest and I have him wrapped up between my legs and I am rubbing/playing with his head/hair
touching. When a person isn't afraid to show affection and receive affection in public or otherwise. Sitting at a bar and touching my leg ect. Not to be confused with the tasteless make-out session in public.
intelligence. being well read. great conversationalist. (told you it was a biggie) great at debating (not argueing)
when I am so connected with someone that there can be a room full of people, but neither one of us are aware of anyone else, but each other. There is no one else, but us. So very hot and sexy.
....tell me yours
Monday, March 05, 2007
Cheating Part II
So, my friend whose husband has been having an affair on her has been weighing heavily on my mind. Not so much her situation in particular, more just cheating spouses/couples in general. As a single girl I see it, hear it, and am asked to join in it, far, far too often.
I think what is bothering me about my friend is the fact that her husband doesn't have any guilt about what he is doing and has done. Which, that's on him. What is getting me about the situation is that what we do today will have ramifications for years down the line, possibly for a lifetime. And I don't think I am being dramatic about this either.
My best friend, Brandy, her dad cheated on her mom, which is ultimately what led to their divorce, which was a wonderful thing and which needed to happen. However, still affects her mother, even though she has remarried, and it still affects Brandy. The divorce was over 15 years ago. Nearly half my lifetime now. It was difficult for everyone. I've been cheated on by five boyfriends that I know about. (there would be a key phrase in there, did you catch it?) Still affects me so fucking much. I'm basically waiting to be disappointed by the person I am dating and I haven't been in a nice long relationship for in a while because of it. I am all about dating. I am a serial dater. Wow. one step down, eleven more to go. However, I was left with and sometimes still wonder what I did wrong to be cheated on. The truth is I didn't do anything wrong. I know this. But, I've been left wondering. I was (am) a great girlfriend. I don't bitch, I don't whine, I don't nag. I never say, I'm too tired, I have a headache. I always will want sex. I know I didn't do anything wrong. But, I am still left wondering. However, I certainly know what it feels like. It sucks and it hurts. And please, God please make it stop hurting. Is it something I am doing? Am I causing this? Fuck that. No, it's not me, but again I can't help but wonder, which is what pisses me off. Why should I be left to wonder? See, still affecting me. Which, see, again it never ends. Never a good idea.
Why do people think sex is going to solve whatever it is that is wrong with their relationship? All it's going to do is break the other person and ruin your life in some way. Trust? Gone. Finding a new realtionship? Going to be tough. The other person will be bitter and you will have to (eventually) admit that you cheated. Or when that starts to back fire on you then you will start to lie about why the relationship ended. You will always be the person who cheated or who was cheated on. Always. For me, I cheated once. I was 16, in high school and cheated on my really shitty boyfriend with Sam who played Santa during an FBLA meeting. Even though the boyfriend was shitty at the time, it was no excuse to cheat. If you're unhappy get out of the relationship. Eleven years laterI still don't feel great about what I did. There is still a bit of shame and guilt associated with it. And karma is always in the back of my mind. Since I cheated once I know that I will one day fall in love, REALLY, fall in love and be cheated on. Karma bites hard. Cheating, results in bad karma all the way around. That's the end of today's lesson. Pass it on.
..also to clarify, to me cheating can be: kissing, sex, foreplay, sharing intimate thoughts, feelings, emotions trusting someone else with things you should be doing and saying with your partner. The men who cheated on me did all the above then some and a little bit more.
I think what is bothering me about my friend is the fact that her husband doesn't have any guilt about what he is doing and has done. Which, that's on him. What is getting me about the situation is that what we do today will have ramifications for years down the line, possibly for a lifetime. And I don't think I am being dramatic about this either.
My best friend, Brandy, her dad cheated on her mom, which is ultimately what led to their divorce, which was a wonderful thing and which needed to happen. However, still affects her mother, even though she has remarried, and it still affects Brandy. The divorce was over 15 years ago. Nearly half my lifetime now. It was difficult for everyone. I've been cheated on by five boyfriends that I know about. (there would be a key phrase in there, did you catch it?) Still affects me so fucking much. I'm basically waiting to be disappointed by the person I am dating and I haven't been in a nice long relationship for in a while because of it. I am all about dating. I am a serial dater. Wow. one step down, eleven more to go. However, I was left with and sometimes still wonder what I did wrong to be cheated on. The truth is I didn't do anything wrong. I know this. But, I've been left wondering. I was (am) a great girlfriend. I don't bitch, I don't whine, I don't nag. I never say, I'm too tired, I have a headache. I always will want sex. I know I didn't do anything wrong. But, I am still left wondering. However, I certainly know what it feels like. It sucks and it hurts. And please, God please make it stop hurting. Is it something I am doing? Am I causing this? Fuck that. No, it's not me, but again I can't help but wonder, which is what pisses me off. Why should I be left to wonder? See, still affecting me. Which, see, again it never ends. Never a good idea.
Why do people think sex is going to solve whatever it is that is wrong with their relationship? All it's going to do is break the other person and ruin your life in some way. Trust? Gone. Finding a new realtionship? Going to be tough. The other person will be bitter and you will have to (eventually) admit that you cheated. Or when that starts to back fire on you then you will start to lie about why the relationship ended. You will always be the person who cheated or who was cheated on. Always. For me, I cheated once. I was 16, in high school and cheated on my really shitty boyfriend with Sam who played Santa during an FBLA meeting. Even though the boyfriend was shitty at the time, it was no excuse to cheat. If you're unhappy get out of the relationship. Eleven years laterI still don't feel great about what I did. There is still a bit of shame and guilt associated with it. And karma is always in the back of my mind. Since I cheated once I know that I will one day fall in love, REALLY, fall in love and be cheated on. Karma bites hard. Cheating, results in bad karma all the way around. That's the end of today's lesson. Pass it on.
..also to clarify, to me cheating can be: kissing, sex, foreplay, sharing intimate thoughts, feelings, emotions trusting someone else with things you should be doing and saying with your partner. The men who cheated on me did all the above then some and a little bit more.
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Happy
What makes you happy? What makes me happy is when someone knows you better than you know yourself.
In other news: My good friend Missy caught her husband cheating. This all happened yesterday. Poor girl. Nobody deserves that kind of treatment. So my question of the day is What makes people cheat? I've always pondered this. Any insight anyone?
In other news: My good friend Missy caught her husband cheating. This all happened yesterday. Poor girl. Nobody deserves that kind of treatment. So my question of the day is What makes people cheat? I've always pondered this. Any insight anyone?
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Just when....
Just when I was starting to get upset...over 'nothing', I messaged Nick and thank God I did!!! Looks like I won't be alone in NY this weekend :) This is the guy that was voted by Washintonian Magazine to be the top 100 best looking people in Washington :) Love this guy. Now I totally have to pack the matching panties and bras!!! Just kidding but It should be fun for sureeeeeeee!
Here is how the convo went:
Please note: I edited his name to protect the innocent :)
Cristalgirl79: Hey you
NickTimes (8:47:28 AM): hey
NickTimes (8:47:30 AM): how are you??
Cristalgirl79 (8:48:49 AM): I'm good!
Cristalgirl79 (8:48:52 AM): yourself?
NickTimes (8:50:10 AM): great
NickTimes (8:50:14 AM): off to nyc tomorrow
NickTimes (8:50:18 AM): then miami next weekend
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:41 AM): You're kidding
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:43 AM): Meeeeeee too
NickTimes (8:50:32 AM): what??
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:49 AM): I'm going to NYC tommorrow
NickTimes (8:50:34 AM): nice
NickTimes (8:50:38 AM): we should meet up
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:56 AM): and South Beach next weekend
NickTimes (8:50:42 AM): no way
NickTimes (8:50:47 AM): why are you going down there??
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:47 AM): Just to party, Lets hang out! Too Cool!
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:53 AM): I don't have to have a reason!!!
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:59 AM): I love Miami
Cristalgirl79 (8:52:06 AM): My friends and I go every year
NickTimes (8:52:57 AM): nice
NickTimes (8:53:01 AM): we will definitley
NickTimes (8:53:15 AM): meet up
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:36 AM): Where are you staying in NYC?
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:42 AM): II'm at the Marquee
NickTimes (8:53:30 AM): midtown manhattan east marriot
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:48 AM): Times Square
NickTimes (8:53:37 AM): my buddies family owns it
NickTimes (8:53:38 AM): yeh
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:56 AM): Okay........
NickTimes (8:53:47 AM): i was staying at the W in times square
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:11 AM): I'm going to be alone...
NickTimes (8:53:57 AM): but i get such a rediculous rate at this marriot
NickTimes (8:54:01 AM): why alone???
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:19 AM): Good deal
NickTimes (8:54:08 AM): i can keep you warm
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:26 AM): Why not?
NickTimes (8:54:10 AM): hahaha
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:33 AM): Haha...I know this!
NickTimes (8:54:19 AM): good
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:44 AM): I'm going alone because I need to!
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:46 AM): Mentally
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:52 AM): Seriously!
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:03 AM): Totally got fucked over by a guy
NickTimes (8:54:53 AM): oh
NickTimes (8:54:56 AM): im sorry to here that
NickTimes (8:55:00 AM): i am newly single myself
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:20 AM): I should have listened to my instincts
NickTimes (8:55:07 AM): you will be alright you can get any guy you want
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:24 AM): Haha
NickTimes (8:55:09 AM): promise
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:27 AM): Perfect
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:30 AM): I know...
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:42 AM): this one, I actually liked though...not like the rest.
NickTimes (8:55:25 AM): whats your email
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:57 AM): amayawarner@hotmail.com
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:03 AM): why?
NickTimes (8:56:04 AM): i started a new one
NickTimes (8:56:09 AM): about a month ago
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:27 AM): a new?
NickTimes (8:56:12 AM): when i broke up
NickTimes (8:56:16 AM): canceled my old account
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:36 AM): oh
NickTimes (8:56:40 AM): just did
NickTimes (8:56:41 AM): you add me
NickTimes (8:56:43 AM): or accept me
NickTimes (8:56:44 AM): haha
Cristalgirl79 (8:57:25 AM): why did you and the girl break it off?
NickTimes (8:57:47 AM): cause she had a drinking and lieing problem
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:24 AM): I'm sorry
NickTimes (8:58:18 AM): dont be
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:36 AM): She did something reeeeeeeeeally bad?
NickTimes (8:58:21 AM): i couldnt be happier
NickTimes (8:58:24 AM): no
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:42 AM): Haha
NickTimes (8:58:36 AM): she wants to be together, i dont
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:58 AM): I see
NickTimes (8:58:42 AM): i knew i wasnt marrying her
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:01 AM): Oh well
NickTimes (8:58:45 AM): so why keep it going
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:09 AM): You're saving yourself for me
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:18 AM): Yeah...I know
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:58 AM): Oh and how was the Maxim Party?
NickTimes (9:00:58 AM): great
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:15 AM): good
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:27 AM): I'm checking out your pics
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:30 AM): very nice
NickTimes (9:02:28 AM): nice
NickTimes (9:02:33 AM): where you staying in south beach??
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:59 AM): The Delano
NickTimes (9:02:47 AM): awesome
NickTimes (9:02:49 AM): love that place
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:10 AM): Yep
NickTimes (9:02:54 AM): i will be across the street
NickTimes (9:02:57 AM): at the sanctuary
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:18 AM): Hoooooooot!
NickTimes (9:03:08 AM): yeh
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:38 AM): Whose coming with you?
NickTimes (9:03:33 AM): maybe we will meet in nyc this weekend?
NickTimes (9:03:45 AM): have you heard of the band called OAR???
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:03 AM): Yeah! For sure! Lets do it.
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:07 AM): never
NickTimes (9:03:53 AM): hmmm
NickTimes (9:04:03 AM): www.ofarevolution.com
NickTimes (9:04:20 AM): anyway, they are headlining a big music festival thats in miami next weekend
NickTimes (9:04:27 AM): i grew up with the lead singer and the drummer
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:53 AM): yeah...
NickTimes (9:04:39 AM): so were going down to see them play and rip it up in south beach
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:04 AM): hold...listening
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:51 AM): that was breif
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:53 AM): but good
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:09 AM): I like
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:21 AM): I think I'll buy it
NickTimes (9:06:26 AM): you would like them if I know you
NickTimes (9:06:28 AM): im sure
NickTimes (9:06:39 AM): anyway, gotta run into a meeting
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:59 AM): Okay...
NickTimes (9:06:44 AM): do you still have my #???
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:03 AM): got my number?
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:04 AM): haha
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:08 AM): I don't think so
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:17 AM): lay it on me
NickTimes (9:07:05 AM): 540-860-2162
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:25 AM): Yep
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:28 AM): thatsssssssssss me
NickTimes (9:07:15 AM): 240-418-xxxx
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:37 AM): Got it
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:44 AM): Have a good day
NickTimes (9:07:33 AM): i am going to hoboken on saturday for an all day party
NickTimes (9:07:39 AM): hobokenfest
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:04 AM): NY?
NickTimes (9:07:51 AM): yes
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:13 AM): Yeah...
NickTimes (9:07:57 AM): its 10 minutes from the hotel
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:22 AM): I see
NickTimes (9:08:08 AM): its like an all day st. pattys day thing
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:32 AM): Nice!
NickTimes (9:08:16 AM): k, you interested you could meet my friends
NickTimes (9:08:18 AM): be back in a bit
NickTimes (9:08:19 AM): bye
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:38 AM): okay
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:39 AM): bye
NickTimes went away at 9:08:44 AM.
NickTimes returned at 9:38:26 AM.
Here is how the convo went:
Please note: I edited his name to protect the innocent :)
Cristalgirl79: Hey you
NickTimes (8:47:28 AM): hey
NickTimes (8:47:30 AM): how are you??
Cristalgirl79 (8:48:49 AM): I'm good!
Cristalgirl79 (8:48:52 AM): yourself?
NickTimes (8:50:10 AM): great
NickTimes (8:50:14 AM): off to nyc tomorrow
NickTimes (8:50:18 AM): then miami next weekend
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:41 AM): You're kidding
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:43 AM): Meeeeeee too
NickTimes (8:50:32 AM): what??
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:49 AM): I'm going to NYC tommorrow
NickTimes (8:50:34 AM): nice
NickTimes (8:50:38 AM): we should meet up
Cristalgirl79 (8:50:56 AM): and South Beach next weekend
NickTimes (8:50:42 AM): no way
NickTimes (8:50:47 AM): why are you going down there??
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:47 AM): Just to party, Lets hang out! Too Cool!
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:53 AM): I don't have to have a reason!!!
Cristalgirl79 (8:51:59 AM): I love Miami
Cristalgirl79 (8:52:06 AM): My friends and I go every year
NickTimes (8:52:57 AM): nice
NickTimes (8:53:01 AM): we will definitley
NickTimes (8:53:15 AM): meet up
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:36 AM): Where are you staying in NYC?
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:42 AM): II'm at the Marquee
NickTimes (8:53:30 AM): midtown manhattan east marriot
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:48 AM): Times Square
NickTimes (8:53:37 AM): my buddies family owns it
NickTimes (8:53:38 AM): yeh
Cristalgirl79 (8:53:56 AM): Okay........
NickTimes (8:53:47 AM): i was staying at the W in times square
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:11 AM): I'm going to be alone...
NickTimes (8:53:57 AM): but i get such a rediculous rate at this marriot
NickTimes (8:54:01 AM): why alone???
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:19 AM): Good deal
NickTimes (8:54:08 AM): i can keep you warm
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:26 AM): Why not?
NickTimes (8:54:10 AM): hahaha
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:33 AM): Haha...I know this!
NickTimes (8:54:19 AM): good
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:44 AM): I'm going alone because I need to!
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:46 AM): Mentally
Cristalgirl79 (8:54:52 AM): Seriously!
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:03 AM): Totally got fucked over by a guy
NickTimes (8:54:53 AM): oh
NickTimes (8:54:56 AM): im sorry to here that
NickTimes (8:55:00 AM): i am newly single myself
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:20 AM): I should have listened to my instincts
NickTimes (8:55:07 AM): you will be alright you can get any guy you want
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:24 AM): Haha
NickTimes (8:55:09 AM): promise
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:27 AM): Perfect
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:30 AM): I know...
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:42 AM): this one, I actually liked though...not like the rest.
NickTimes (8:55:25 AM): whats your email
Cristalgirl79 (8:55:57 AM): amayawarner@hotmail.com
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:03 AM): why?
NickTimes (8:56:04 AM): i started a new one
NickTimes (8:56:09 AM): about a month ago
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:27 AM): a new?
NickTimes (8:56:12 AM): when i broke up
NickTimes (8:56:16 AM): canceled my old account
Cristalgirl79 (8:56:36 AM): oh
NickTimes (8:56:40 AM): just did
NickTimes (8:56:41 AM): you add me
NickTimes (8:56:43 AM): or accept me
NickTimes (8:56:44 AM): haha
Cristalgirl79 (8:57:25 AM): why did you and the girl break it off?
NickTimes (8:57:47 AM): cause she had a drinking and lieing problem
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:24 AM): I'm sorry
NickTimes (8:58:18 AM): dont be
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:36 AM): She did something reeeeeeeeeally bad?
NickTimes (8:58:21 AM): i couldnt be happier
NickTimes (8:58:24 AM): no
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:42 AM): Haha
NickTimes (8:58:36 AM): she wants to be together, i dont
Cristalgirl79 (8:58:58 AM): I see
NickTimes (8:58:42 AM): i knew i wasnt marrying her
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:01 AM): Oh well
NickTimes (8:58:45 AM): so why keep it going
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:09 AM): You're saving yourself for me
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:18 AM): Yeah...I know
Cristalgirl79 (8:59:58 AM): Oh and how was the Maxim Party?
NickTimes (9:00:58 AM): great
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:15 AM): good
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:27 AM): I'm checking out your pics
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:30 AM): very nice
NickTimes (9:02:28 AM): nice
NickTimes (9:02:33 AM): where you staying in south beach??
Cristalgirl79 (9:02:59 AM): The Delano
NickTimes (9:02:47 AM): awesome
NickTimes (9:02:49 AM): love that place
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:10 AM): Yep
NickTimes (9:02:54 AM): i will be across the street
NickTimes (9:02:57 AM): at the sanctuary
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:18 AM): Hoooooooot!
NickTimes (9:03:08 AM): yeh
Cristalgirl79 (9:03:38 AM): Whose coming with you?
NickTimes (9:03:33 AM): maybe we will meet in nyc this weekend?
NickTimes (9:03:45 AM): have you heard of the band called OAR???
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:03 AM): Yeah! For sure! Lets do it.
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:07 AM): never
NickTimes (9:03:53 AM): hmmm
NickTimes (9:04:03 AM): www.ofarevolution.com
NickTimes (9:04:20 AM): anyway, they are headlining a big music festival thats in miami next weekend
NickTimes (9:04:27 AM): i grew up with the lead singer and the drummer
Cristalgirl79 (9:04:53 AM): yeah...
NickTimes (9:04:39 AM): so were going down to see them play and rip it up in south beach
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:04 AM): hold...listening
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:51 AM): that was breif
Cristalgirl79 (9:05:53 AM): but good
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:09 AM): I like
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:21 AM): I think I'll buy it
NickTimes (9:06:26 AM): you would like them if I know you
NickTimes (9:06:28 AM): im sure
NickTimes (9:06:39 AM): anyway, gotta run into a meeting
Cristalgirl79 (9:06:59 AM): Okay...
NickTimes (9:06:44 AM): do you still have my #???
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:03 AM): got my number?
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:04 AM): haha
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:08 AM): I don't think so
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:17 AM): lay it on me
NickTimes (9:07:05 AM): 540-860-2162
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:25 AM): Yep
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:28 AM): thatsssssssssss me
NickTimes (9:07:15 AM): 240-418-xxxx
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:37 AM): Got it
Cristalgirl79 (9:07:44 AM): Have a good day
NickTimes (9:07:33 AM): i am going to hoboken on saturday for an all day party
NickTimes (9:07:39 AM): hobokenfest
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:04 AM): NY?
NickTimes (9:07:51 AM): yes
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:13 AM): Yeah...
NickTimes (9:07:57 AM): its 10 minutes from the hotel
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:22 AM): I see
NickTimes (9:08:08 AM): its like an all day st. pattys day thing
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:32 AM): Nice!
NickTimes (9:08:16 AM): k, you interested you could meet my friends
NickTimes (9:08:18 AM): be back in a bit
NickTimes (9:08:19 AM): bye
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:38 AM): okay
Cristalgirl79 (9:08:39 AM): bye
NickTimes went away at 9:08:44 AM.
NickTimes returned at 9:38:26 AM.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
Defense Mechanisms
They're grrrrrrrrrreat! All this time I was wondering and questioning myself, but really I'm so grateful. True colors. Love 'em!
THATS All!
Oh, and the Oscars I didn't stay up to watch...I had too much studying to do. I'm sure they were fantab though!!!
Thanks for finding me, Mathew. We have tons of catching up to do!!!
I'm off to class.
~A~
THATS All!
Oh, and the Oscars I didn't stay up to watch...I had too much studying to do. I'm sure they were fantab though!!!
Thanks for finding me, Mathew. We have tons of catching up to do!!!
I'm off to class.
~A~
Saturday, February 24, 2007
G L A M O R O U S
~*~Mani's and Pedi's with Haven~*~
~*~It's something so alluring about a strappy stilletto so I'm going to be feeding my shoe fetish by shopping with my sisters~*~
~*~A nice dinner with my fabulous family~*~
~*~ Champagne Weaknesses~*~
~*~ A girl's night out that will turn into morning~*~
~*~Happy Birthday~*~
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Survey
1) Is there someone who you like at the moment: always
2) Have you ever been given roses: yes many times (purple ones are my favorite)
3) What is your all-time favorite romance movie: Gone with the Wind (awe)
4) How many times can you honestly say you've been in love: honestly? Twice.
5) Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate: I believe that everyone, at some point in their life, will be given the opportunity to make the acquaintance of the person who they could have ultimately called their "soul mate"; regardless of whether they hold on or allow that person to slip beneath their grasp.
6) Do you think that you should put your friends first or your boyfriend/girlfriend: I think that if both your romantic and social relationships are they way they're SUPPOSED to be, such a thing would never be an issue :)
7) Have you ever had your heart broken: to pieces, yes
8) What do you think about long-distance relationships: I think it's a fallacy that most individuals assume they cannot work; I was in a long-distance relationship for about a year and a half and it worked rather well, requiring nothing more than trust, compromise, and a little effort to make that love shine from nine-hundred miles away. It sounds cliché but it is what it is...
9) Your thoughts on online relationships: it's a lot of work!
10) Would you rather date someone five years older or five younger: no opinion, it's all relative
11) Do you believe the statement "once a cheater always a cheater": I believe that the best predictor of future behavior are the patterns of past behavior (nod to my fellow cognitive therapists), however I also feel that willing individuals are potentially changing and constantly evolving, and if they weren't quite honestly I'd be bored!!
12) How many kids do you want to have: two at least
13) Do you usually fall for the right boy or girl: fallen for a boy? Oh, I haven't done that in years! Since the first one resulted in a pretty bad Achilles heel on the right, that then thanks to unexpectedly tripping a few years later, resulted in yet another on the left, and hence I've since been staying off of my feet :)
14) What is your favorite color(s): CERULEAN! Shades of blue, {Think Tiffany's}, brown, cream, and peach; autumn colors and those tones reminiscent of Minoan frescos
15) What is closest to you right now: either my fiji water bottle or my keyboard
16) Do you believe you truly only love once: eh I believe your first TRUE love shapes the way you will love for the rest of your life
17) Imagine you're seventy-nine years old and your spouse just died, would you re-marry: no
18) At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex: in third grade, about 8?
19) Do you think someone likes you: Likes me? Yeah, he cares a lot!
20) Have you ever cut your own hair: yup
21) Have you ever done something you regret: in the classical sense of course, but I've come to nevertheless find that every poor decision I have ever made, every undeserving person I've ever befriended, and every lousy situation I have ever gotten myself into, has ALWAYS brought with it some beautiful silver lining that, even to this day, has made EVERYTHING worth it. ... and you know who you are.
22) Have you ever skipped school: Yeah!!!
23) Have you ever bungee-jumped: Does Kings Dominion really count?
24) Have you ever punched someone: not without good reason
25) Have you ever cheated on a test: Unfortunately, hasn't everyone in one form or another?
26) Have you ever broken into someone's house: Only because it was raining and I locked the door with the house keyes in the house..Eric in Chicago taught me how to take my Amtrak rewards card and open the door, it was the day of the infamous redskins game.
28) Have you ever been to a funeral: yes, I've been to a few
29) Have you ever been on stage: ones with a pole? No.
30) What's your favorite season: Spring, Summer, Autumn
31) What's your favorite food: good Italian, sushi, anything from Red Lobster I swear it's like crack!
32) What's your favorite breakfast: the kind that you eat half-inebriated at three in the morning after a long night of rocking out, with your favorite person or group of people. You know, the kind of people that need seatbelt chairs to stay upright in their seats? Yeah that's some good shit!
33) Who is your favorite person: oh wow, that's a BIG question. I guess that would be anyone that can make me smile by simply walking into the room, who make me feel 1000 times better with an unexpected touch or embrace, or who make me feel happy in knowing only that they're happy too; the kind of people that make you feel warm when you hear them laugh. The kind of people who's well being you'd put before your own any day of the week, and who despite how mad they make you, you can never REALLY be mad at them, because they've already done more for you than they'd ever know. It's those sorts of people...
34) What's your favorite book: The Alchemist, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Audacity of Hope, too many to mention.
35) What's your favorite lake: that one in C'Ville where we watched the Leonoid meteor shower at back in like 2002. I mean that is a lake, right? A lake or a pond? Whateva.
36) What's your favorite sport to watch: Figure skating
37) What's your favorite Disney movie: The Little Mermaid or the Tigger Movie
38) What's your favorite name for a son: I've always had a tough time with this one lately 'Jagger'
39) What's your favorite name for a daughter: Kiki Addison
40) Do you prefer coffee or Cappuccino: Frappuccino!
41) Do you prefer long or short relationships: L-O-N-G
42) Do you prefer scary movies or comedies: comedies; Becca wants me to see Zodiac with her, I told her I would for her TF.
43) Do you prefer long or short hair on the opposite sex: I like both; it really all depends how the person wears it and how comfortable they feel with the length...Cleancut is sexiest.
44) Do you prefer fruits or vegetables: fruits
45) In the past three days have you talked on the phone: of course
46) In the past three days have you watched a movie: A Documentary...does that count?
47) In the past three days have you cried: Yeah, I cried last night as I was praying. Everytime Britney Spears is on the news I get teary eyed because none of us really know what she's going through or dealing with and I pray for her to be well and find her way.
48) In the past three days have you smoked: Nope
49) In the past three days have you drank a glass of water: of course, I've drank a few. In fact I carry bottled water wherever I go.
50) In the past three days have you used drugs: you'd think, right? I kid. I kid. Just Lexapro.
51) In the past three days have you read a book or magazine: Yup, I read the March issue of SHAPE and continued reading Palahniuk's Haunted
52) In the past three days have you watched TV: Sure.
53) In the past three days have you taken a shower: Yeah of course and shaved my legs with the new Venus Divine and it's a staple for summer, for sure! Sooooooo soft, my legs that is.
54) In the past three days have you taken a picture: Yep, you know me
55) In the past three days have you listened to music: always
56) In the past three days have you told someone you loved them: yep.
57) In the past three days have you watched a football game on TV: No.
2) Have you ever been given roses: yes many times (purple ones are my favorite)
3) What is your all-time favorite romance movie: Gone with the Wind (awe)
4) How many times can you honestly say you've been in love: honestly? Twice.
5) Do you believe that everyone has a soul mate: I believe that everyone, at some point in their life, will be given the opportunity to make the acquaintance of the person who they could have ultimately called their "soul mate"; regardless of whether they hold on or allow that person to slip beneath their grasp.
6) Do you think that you should put your friends first or your boyfriend/girlfriend: I think that if both your romantic and social relationships are they way they're SUPPOSED to be, such a thing would never be an issue :)
7) Have you ever had your heart broken: to pieces, yes
8) What do you think about long-distance relationships: I think it's a fallacy that most individuals assume they cannot work; I was in a long-distance relationship for about a year and a half and it worked rather well, requiring nothing more than trust, compromise, and a little effort to make that love shine from nine-hundred miles away. It sounds cliché but it is what it is...
9) Your thoughts on online relationships: it's a lot of work!
10) Would you rather date someone five years older or five younger: no opinion, it's all relative
11) Do you believe the statement "once a cheater always a cheater": I believe that the best predictor of future behavior are the patterns of past behavior (nod to my fellow cognitive therapists), however I also feel that willing individuals are potentially changing and constantly evolving, and if they weren't quite honestly I'd be bored!!
12) How many kids do you want to have: two at least
13) Do you usually fall for the right boy or girl: fallen for a boy? Oh, I haven't done that in years! Since the first one resulted in a pretty bad Achilles heel on the right, that then thanks to unexpectedly tripping a few years later, resulted in yet another on the left, and hence I've since been staying off of my feet :)
14) What is your favorite color(s): CERULEAN! Shades of blue, {Think Tiffany's}, brown, cream, and peach; autumn colors and those tones reminiscent of Minoan frescos
15) What is closest to you right now: either my fiji water bottle or my keyboard
16) Do you believe you truly only love once: eh I believe your first TRUE love shapes the way you will love for the rest of your life
17) Imagine you're seventy-nine years old and your spouse just died, would you re-marry: no
18) At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex: in third grade, about 8?
19) Do you think someone likes you: Likes me? Yeah, he cares a lot!
20) Have you ever cut your own hair: yup
21) Have you ever done something you regret: in the classical sense of course, but I've come to nevertheless find that every poor decision I have ever made, every undeserving person I've ever befriended, and every lousy situation I have ever gotten myself into, has ALWAYS brought with it some beautiful silver lining that, even to this day, has made EVERYTHING worth it. ... and you know who you are.
22) Have you ever skipped school: Yeah!!!
23) Have you ever bungee-jumped: Does Kings Dominion really count?
24) Have you ever punched someone: not without good reason
25) Have you ever cheated on a test: Unfortunately, hasn't everyone in one form or another?
26) Have you ever broken into someone's house: Only because it was raining and I locked the door with the house keyes in the house..Eric in Chicago taught me how to take my Amtrak rewards card and open the door, it was the day of the infamous redskins game.
28) Have you ever been to a funeral: yes, I've been to a few
29) Have you ever been on stage: ones with a pole? No.
30) What's your favorite season: Spring, Summer, Autumn
31) What's your favorite food: good Italian, sushi, anything from Red Lobster I swear it's like crack!
32) What's your favorite breakfast: the kind that you eat half-inebriated at three in the morning after a long night of rocking out, with your favorite person or group of people. You know, the kind of people that need seatbelt chairs to stay upright in their seats? Yeah that's some good shit!
33) Who is your favorite person: oh wow, that's a BIG question. I guess that would be anyone that can make me smile by simply walking into the room, who make me feel 1000 times better with an unexpected touch or embrace, or who make me feel happy in knowing only that they're happy too; the kind of people that make you feel warm when you hear them laugh. The kind of people who's well being you'd put before your own any day of the week, and who despite how mad they make you, you can never REALLY be mad at them, because they've already done more for you than they'd ever know. It's those sorts of people...
34) What's your favorite book: The Alchemist, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Audacity of Hope, too many to mention.
35) What's your favorite lake: that one in C'Ville where we watched the Leonoid meteor shower at back in like 2002. I mean that is a lake, right? A lake or a pond? Whateva.
36) What's your favorite sport to watch: Figure skating
37) What's your favorite Disney movie: The Little Mermaid or the Tigger Movie
38) What's your favorite name for a son: I've always had a tough time with this one lately 'Jagger'
39) What's your favorite name for a daughter: Kiki Addison
40) Do you prefer coffee or Cappuccino: Frappuccino!
41) Do you prefer long or short relationships: L-O-N-G
42) Do you prefer scary movies or comedies: comedies; Becca wants me to see Zodiac with her, I told her I would for her TF.
43) Do you prefer long or short hair on the opposite sex: I like both; it really all depends how the person wears it and how comfortable they feel with the length...Cleancut is sexiest.
44) Do you prefer fruits or vegetables: fruits
45) In the past three days have you talked on the phone: of course
46) In the past three days have you watched a movie: A Documentary...does that count?
47) In the past three days have you cried: Yeah, I cried last night as I was praying. Everytime Britney Spears is on the news I get teary eyed because none of us really know what she's going through or dealing with and I pray for her to be well and find her way.
48) In the past three days have you smoked: Nope
49) In the past three days have you drank a glass of water: of course, I've drank a few. In fact I carry bottled water wherever I go.
50) In the past three days have you used drugs: you'd think, right? I kid. I kid. Just Lexapro.
51) In the past three days have you read a book or magazine: Yup, I read the March issue of SHAPE and continued reading Palahniuk's Haunted
52) In the past three days have you watched TV: Sure.
53) In the past three days have you taken a shower: Yeah of course and shaved my legs with the new Venus Divine and it's a staple for summer, for sure! Sooooooo soft, my legs that is.
54) In the past three days have you taken a picture: Yep, you know me
55) In the past three days have you listened to music: always
56) In the past three days have you told someone you loved them: yep.
57) In the past three days have you watched a football game on TV: No.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Update
I'm with Becca today as she gets some ultrasounds to break up her family of kidney stones. She's been unbearable, but then again, I probably would have already died. I have zippy threshold for pain. It's not invasive, it's just going to break up her stones so she can pass them and she promises never to drink coffee again! While we were at the hospital yesterday in comes Shelley the crackwhore/friend of ours...She's had a headache for weeks...but I'm sure it's from snorting Vicodin! Actually she has sinusitis? and Bronchitis! YUCK. But just when you thought your life was bad you hear that the woman that your father married 2 months after the death of your mother wanted to move in with you because she caught her father cheating!!! This is Springer shit. My mom was right when she said that we needed to stay away from that Train wreck!!! Sheesh.
Haven is a hero! She witnessed a man slip and fall on ice and slide underneath an SUV, the man couldn't get himself out from under it because of the ice. She started to help him only to realize he had broken either his leg or ankle. she took off her coat and made the guy grab on to it and pulled him out from under the SUV with some help of people on the street, and did I mention that she had to dig a hole in the ice with the heel of her shoe to hold herself up?! Yeah, she's awesome! Me, I would have just sat on the street indian style crying and asking God, why me?! She is amazing. When she called me to ask me what good have I done today, I told her nothing, she said she saved a life but broke a nail by doing it....Sometimes you have to sacrifice ;) I bought her some Lee Press On's which I'll give to her today @ the hospital.
Haven is a hero! She witnessed a man slip and fall on ice and slide underneath an SUV, the man couldn't get himself out from under it because of the ice. She started to help him only to realize he had broken either his leg or ankle. she took off her coat and made the guy grab on to it and pulled him out from under the SUV with some help of people on the street, and did I mention that she had to dig a hole in the ice with the heel of her shoe to hold herself up?! Yeah, she's awesome! Me, I would have just sat on the street indian style crying and asking God, why me?! She is amazing. When she called me to ask me what good have I done today, I told her nothing, she said she saved a life but broke a nail by doing it....Sometimes you have to sacrifice ;) I bought her some Lee Press On's which I'll give to her today @ the hospital.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
You Should Know
My new blog address will change sometime this week...
I no longer want to sensor myself on here.
Questions? Call.
I no longer want to sensor myself on here.
Questions? Call.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Fashion Week Update!
They already announced it last week at NY Fashion Week, but here is the complete list of designers and models that are going to be appearing at the Fashion Week Live! event in San Francisco, March 15!
I'm WAY excited - you can't see it from this blog post, but I am jumping up and down in my little chair.
Models:
Naomi Campbell
Gemma Ward
Caroline Winberg
Erin Wasson
Lily Donaldson
Marija
Luca Gadjus
Designers:
Bill Blass
Calvin Klein
Chado Ralph Rucci
Chaiken Charles
Nolan Doo.
Ellen Tracy
Luca Luca
Michael Kors
Nanette Lepore
Oscar de la Renta
Peter Som
Zac Posen
Tickets:
www.FashionWeekLive.com and 866-840-8822
Ticket prices:
$500.00 to $3500.00
Sponsors:
FashionWeekLive is presented by Sephora, and sponsored by Swarovski, Mercedes-Benz, LYCRA®, Cingular Wireless, part of the new AT&T, DHLand Moët & Chandon
NOTE TO SELF: GET A DAMN TICKET!!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Go Ahead and Admit It!
You missed my beautiful blonde ass ;) I've been on sabbatical for a while...actually school has been keeping me busy and I rarely make time for my blog. [Frowny face] All of this hard work will pay off. I see an elementary school with my name on it in my future!!!
Just a recap:
~ Hosted Ava & Abi's Homecoming tea party @ Courtney's which went well. I think Ava loves my moochies too! Abi's sooo tiny still, I'm scared of her!!!
~ Went out with the rockstars on Saturday, had too many drinks, quit drinking early in the night, was hit on more times than Shelley's crack pipe. It was fun just being out of the house and away from school. We met some interesting characters to say the least.
~Woke up Sunday afternoon with a hangover that sent me to the ER because Michelle thought I was dying because I puked up everything but my liver. At the ER they said I was dehydrated and hooked me up with a life line, er...IV that is.
~ Anna Nicole Smith was found dead in her room, sadly. The lady came from nothing and gained it all only to lose one of the first loves of her life, her son, in late 2006. "But it wasn't death that killed her, it was life." God keep.
~ The Grammy's were fantastic. Hands down, it was the best awards show that I had seen in a long while. From the flawless Scarlett Johanson to Mary J's neverending speech, to Gnarles Barkley's militant rendition of "Crazy" in which I freaking loveeeeeeeeeeed! And how can I forget Christina A's version of "It's A Man's World"? Pure Perfection. The hair though, has to go!
~In case you've been hiding under a rock, Obama, the extrordainare Senator from IL has announced a democratic bid for President. He's no Hillary, but I like him :) Hillary's in it to win it though....We'll just have to wait & see.
Just a recap:
~ Hosted Ava & Abi's Homecoming tea party @ Courtney's which went well. I think Ava loves my moochies too! Abi's sooo tiny still, I'm scared of her!!!
~ Went out with the rockstars on Saturday, had too many drinks, quit drinking early in the night, was hit on more times than Shelley's crack pipe. It was fun just being out of the house and away from school. We met some interesting characters to say the least.
~Woke up Sunday afternoon with a hangover that sent me to the ER because Michelle thought I was dying because I puked up everything but my liver. At the ER they said I was dehydrated and hooked me up with a life line, er...IV that is.
~ Anna Nicole Smith was found dead in her room, sadly. The lady came from nothing and gained it all only to lose one of the first loves of her life, her son, in late 2006. "But it wasn't death that killed her, it was life." God keep.
~ The Grammy's were fantastic. Hands down, it was the best awards show that I had seen in a long while. From the flawless Scarlett Johanson to Mary J's neverending speech, to Gnarles Barkley's militant rendition of "Crazy" in which I freaking loveeeeeeeeeeed! And how can I forget Christina A's version of "It's A Man's World"? Pure Perfection. The hair though, has to go!
~In case you've been hiding under a rock, Obama, the extrordainare Senator from IL has announced a democratic bid for President. He's no Hillary, but I like him :) Hillary's in it to win it though....We'll just have to wait & see.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!
Sunday, February 04, 2007
Not so good!
I was a long and uneventful weekend. I've been nursing an injured shoulder/neck that now has a chemical burn on it from a lousy Thermacare patch. Only I would be allergic to a heat patch! The burn looks horrible. My hair irritates it. Not good.
I awoke to a sore throat. Big surprise. If you haven't noticed I've been extremely moody lately. I believe it's a combonation of my meds. I called my therapist and he explained that the Lexapro is actually just getting into my system to where they are theraputic...That explains the mood swings. I cry at the drop of a hat. Infact, my mother made me cry this morning. I actually cried in front of her, typically I cry alone. She apologized but her comments were yet again, unneccassary.
Early to bed, early to rise...back to school tommorrow injured shoulder, burned skin, sore throat and 20 degree weather and all :) I'm getting back on the track I was on earlier this year.
Oh, and my cell phone is done. Not good at all.
Other than that, I've been great! Thanks for asking!!!
A
I awoke to a sore throat. Big surprise. If you haven't noticed I've been extremely moody lately. I believe it's a combonation of my meds. I called my therapist and he explained that the Lexapro is actually just getting into my system to where they are theraputic...That explains the mood swings. I cry at the drop of a hat. Infact, my mother made me cry this morning. I actually cried in front of her, typically I cry alone. She apologized but her comments were yet again, unneccassary.
Early to bed, early to rise...back to school tommorrow injured shoulder, burned skin, sore throat and 20 degree weather and all :) I'm getting back on the track I was on earlier this year.
Oh, and my cell phone is done. Not good at all.
Other than that, I've been great! Thanks for asking!!!
A
Friday, February 02, 2007
Holy Crap!
You all know that I'm a fiend for celebrity dirt and when I come across real celebrity trash I must share it with you bitches! I live for Perezhilton.com!
WARNING: IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 DO NOT DOUBLE CLICK YOUR MOUSE...uhm, CLICK THE LINK...THANX :)
http://perezhilton.com/topics/if_you_are/if_you_are_easily_offended_20070202.php
And yes, I'm not a fan of this hoochie who was also caught doing coke on the beach as well. Whatever happened to class? I think her pootie looks as if it's been abused!
WARNING: IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 DO NOT DOUBLE CLICK YOUR MOUSE...uhm, CLICK THE LINK...THANX :)
http://perezhilton.com/topics/if_you_are/if_you_are_easily_offended_20070202.php
And yes, I'm not a fan of this hoochie who was also caught doing coke on the beach as well. Whatever happened to class? I think her pootie looks as if it's been abused!
Thursday, February 01, 2007
A quickie...
~Extremely busy with school
~Too busy to keep this updated, infact
~My bitches from LA came out to spend time with me and we had too much fun :)
~I got drunk which made for a helluva hangover that lasted for days
~Skipped out on a few dates
~My shoulder/Neck is phucked up
~Dad has been okay....Mom is well...Can't complain
~Grandpa is good too!!
~Lexapro is going well, just moody from time to time
~Because of the cold air, haven't been running as much as I'd like...
~After my MRI i'm going to try and get back into the gym...I need this!
~Too busy to keep this updated, infact
~My bitches from LA came out to spend time with me and we had too much fun :)
~I got drunk which made for a helluva hangover that lasted for days
~Skipped out on a few dates
~My shoulder/Neck is phucked up
~Dad has been okay....Mom is well...Can't complain
~Grandpa is good too!!
~Lexapro is going well, just moody from time to time
~Because of the cold air, haven't been running as much as I'd like...
~After my MRI i'm going to try and get back into the gym...I need this!
Color Me Inspired
After reading the headline in the school newspaper, "Students don't care" and then reading the article only to find out what they don't care about is this upcoming presidential election, but more than that, students don't care about anything to do with America today. Unless it has to do with money, clothes, their car, their new i-pod, cell phone...name anything else material...they don't care about anything of substance.
After speaking with several students about the lack of empathy for the war, government, the election, about anything. They stated the main reason they don't care is because the politicians don't care about them. They (students) are nothing more than a sound bite and a hopeful vote for, pick any politician. So, based on that, why should they care? Why should they vote? The war doesn't directly impact them because they know they won't get drafted. Therefore, the war is b.s., but ultimately in the long run, who cares. They're safe here at home. Which leaves me to question the males who went on their 18th birthday to register, did they just see it as an obligation, and did they take into consideration at all about what it was they were signing? My answer was in the expression on their faces. The answer was clearly, no.
I saw their point and I knew that anything I had to say would just fall on ears filled with i-pod headphones.
However, what I see lacking in the youth of America and what I find most disturbing is the feeling and the sense that they matter. That one person can make a difference and that one person can change the world or the world of one person on any given day. When I was 19 my plan was to go to South America and save the rainforests and I was going to do it all by myself if it came to that! Obviously the full level of my cynicism didn't happen until a few years later.
I understand that they have seen and experienced images, and lies, and more political spin than most of us seen before we attended our first college frat party, but still. Where's the hope? If the hope is dead already, then god, I don't want to know the level of cynicism in 10-20 years. If they aren't willing to go vote, or even willing to register to vote, then I don't see a commitment happening in their future of making it to the ballot box come election day when they have kids and are living in a different shade of beige in suburbia USA.
I don't know what the answer is other than trying to get the message across to one person at a time and hopefully it catches onto the next and then the next. Call me hopeful that something as simple as open conversation could cause such a radical effect. However, someone needs to wear rose colored glasses, I'll be happy to volunteer.
If you're looking for your daily dose of, can do it-ness, please, read the following article. Regardless of your political affiliation I think we can all use a little, hell ya, this morning. color me inspired.
After speaking with several students about the lack of empathy for the war, government, the election, about anything. They stated the main reason they don't care is because the politicians don't care about them. They (students) are nothing more than a sound bite and a hopeful vote for, pick any politician. So, based on that, why should they care? Why should they vote? The war doesn't directly impact them because they know they won't get drafted. Therefore, the war is b.s., but ultimately in the long run, who cares. They're safe here at home. Which leaves me to question the males who went on their 18th birthday to register, did they just see it as an obligation, and did they take into consideration at all about what it was they were signing? My answer was in the expression on their faces. The answer was clearly, no.
I saw their point and I knew that anything I had to say would just fall on ears filled with i-pod headphones.
However, what I see lacking in the youth of America and what I find most disturbing is the feeling and the sense that they matter. That one person can make a difference and that one person can change the world or the world of one person on any given day. When I was 19 my plan was to go to South America and save the rainforests and I was going to do it all by myself if it came to that! Obviously the full level of my cynicism didn't happen until a few years later.
I understand that they have seen and experienced images, and lies, and more political spin than most of us seen before we attended our first college frat party, but still. Where's the hope? If the hope is dead already, then god, I don't want to know the level of cynicism in 10-20 years. If they aren't willing to go vote, or even willing to register to vote, then I don't see a commitment happening in their future of making it to the ballot box come election day when they have kids and are living in a different shade of beige in suburbia USA.
I don't know what the answer is other than trying to get the message across to one person at a time and hopefully it catches onto the next and then the next. Call me hopeful that something as simple as open conversation could cause such a radical effect. However, someone needs to wear rose colored glasses, I'll be happy to volunteer.
If you're looking for your daily dose of, can do it-ness, please, read the following article. Regardless of your political affiliation I think we can all use a little, hell ya, this morning. color me inspired.
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