So I went to daddy yesterday, I watched the sunset there and I just told him about my day. I went to bed feeling scared and alone. This morning I woke up upset because he isn't here and I said to myself that this is real, not a dream.
Does anyone know how to preserve the smell on clothes? Any secrets or suggestions?
Mommy is cleaning my house! Normally it's me doing all the work. I guess it helps her feel better. Whatever works. It's better than seeing her just crying. Yesterday was awful for all of us. She told her sister that it hit her like a ton of bricks that he's gone and he's not coming back. I'm actually going to talk to a medical professional. Im an emotional roller coaster. I was told i'm still in denial by someone who knows firsthand what i'm dealing with.
Daddy's death has brought me closer to God. I know I can count on God to get me through this. One day I will see him again. I just have to realize that daddy was ready, he was tired, and when he told me in the hospital bed before he passed that he wanted to go home, he meant home to eternity. He fought a good fight for 18 years. I enjoyed everyday, every minute I spent with him. He's the only man I ever trusted. He was the man that held me tight when I was scared. He helped me through so many things. Now I turn to him and ask what would daddy do?
I'm going to make today a good day. I'm tired of crying all of the time.
