Most of you have already heard from me and have heard about what went down lastnight. We didn't end up going to the Chris Issac concert because Haven got bent out of shape. I adore my sister and I adore my family. It's has always been family first.
Today has been ugly. It has been downright nasty. I'm always having a crisis of some sort with my family. Mostly because we see too much of each other. This one is different because there is an innocent person involved.
I understand and I have a lot of empathy for Haven and her postpartum. I would do anything for her at any cost. Lastnight wasn't cool with me.
I'm not mad at Haven. I'm mad because I allowed this to happen. I'm afraid there is no fixing anything at this point. I dont blame my family. Only, I'm the one to blame. I allowed all of this to happen. I know there is no undoing what was done now.
I can live without my family. I just hope I can live with myself.
There is only one way to fix it and I'm going to do it as soon as the dust settles. In the meantime I'm going on hiatus for a while and most of you won't be hearing from me for a while. Cross your fingers.
I'm off to my grandparents tonight to help them, my house will be empty when I get back. I'm happy that way.
**Daddy is doing ok**
