I broke my toe! My pinky toe :( Fun shtuff...no really...The percoset can be a lot of fun :)

My T Baby has a lot of drama on the West Coast and I need to save this guy. I almost lost him to Ellen....That was close! In all seriousness, he's in a bit of a mess so we all should send T lots of positive energy and prayers. I'm sure my boy will come through with flying colors. He always does :)

And...On to my Latin Lover

I'm Smitten. Truly smitten. He's 35, handsome, successful, keeps me laughing all the time. We can make fun of ourselves and he's a real man :) I can't get enough of him! He's a keeper. We have sooo much in common that it's crazy. I find myself just smiling when I think about him. He's the reason for my permasmile! He has a beautiful daughter too and she is his everything. Everyone knows that I love a man who loves his kid. Thats enough for now :) He reads this!

I have to get dressed for the doctor just so he can take my clothes off and feel me up :) Wish me luck.

T--You sexist pig! Teasing baby....I expect to know more in the coming days! Call me if you need me. And I can't let you get married...We made a deal that if I'm not married by 30 you were going to marry me...sooooooooo if the Spanish fly doesn't work out....I'm all yours! You know I'm a sucker for Tiffany's already!!! Talk to you soon.

A

I want to Congratulate...

....Myself in keeping up with this lovely blog for nearly two years! It's as if time never passes but yet the days fly by. I've enjoyed my time here and intend on staying for a while :) I hope you have enjoyed reading it as much as I've enjoyed writing it!


Happy Anniversary to Me!

Kenny

Dear Kenny:

No matter what the situation, I'll never leave you in times of trouble, we never could have came this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad and I'll take you just the way you are. I need to know that you'll always be the same old someone that I knew....Im always here for you NO MATTER WHAT! I can't not like you.


Love,


Maya

Top Ten

Ten things men shouldn't say out loud in Victoria's Secret...

10. Does this come in children's sizes?

9. No thanks... just sniffing.

8. I'll be in the dressing room going blind.

7. Mom will love this.

6. Oh, the size won't matter. She's inflatable.

5. No need to wrap it up. I'll eat it here.

4. Will you model this for me?

3. The miracle what? This is better than world peace!

2. 75 bucks? You're just gonna end up naked anyway.

1. Oh honey, you'll never squeeze your ass into that.

I thought you would like to know....

I survived the beauty pageant. I thought it was a lot of fun. All jokes aside, there isn't that many cute kids out there. And most of these tiny little things looked as if they were Jonbenet Ramsey. One kid was even going for the Tammy Faye Baker 1983 look. The dresses were over the top. It was hard, but I did well overall.

A lot of people came by today....we ate Shrimp and Teriyaki chicken on the grill and after soaking up a lot of sun, I'm extremely exhausted.

This week is looking great. I have lots to do.

Actually it's that time of year again to plan my daddy's big birthday party!!!

Counting down to my 10 year!!! I have the dress already--It's haute Couture :) Yay!!!

Sugar on my tongue!

Give me, give me, give me some right there on my tongue!!!

A day in the life of Me..............

* Judging a beauty pageant @ 1
* Pool party/BBQ @ 4
* Practicing my dive



Uneventful weekend...

Nothing much compares to swimming in your own pool under the big summer night sky.

Theres just something alluring about the glisten of sweat between your tits while the hot sun beats down on you too during the hot summer days too!



"It must be the assssssss thats got me like...DAYUM!" "Is that your girlfriend? I got my boyfriend, maybe we can be friends"


"Where did you go? I miss you sooooo. Please come back home!"

"Everyones knows I'm in over my head, 8 seconds left in overtime...whats on your mind? Whats on your mind?
"Rearrange...I wish you were a stranger so that I can disengage"

"And i feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud And I know that you'll use them, however you want to"

New Housekeeper Wanted

*Must be able to arrive on time without the 7-11 cups in hand or that you leave around
*Must be able to put away laundry(see picture)

*Must be able to determine which clothes to wash and which to send to the Korean Kleaners

*Must be able to put pool towels by the pool and bathroom towels in the bathroom, (see picture)
*Must be able to put trash basket on floor, not tub
*Must be able to match bed linens perfectly even if it is just a guest room, see photo

*Must be able to speak 7 languages
*Must be able to cook for me and all 3 of my friends
*Must be able to leave your husband at home
*Must be able to water flowers, not the sidewalk
*Must be courteous to my pool guy
*Must clean my kitchen.

*Must not be lesbian
*Must be able to hang bikini's in laundry room, not on towel rack
*Must not be a cock block
*Must be able to do fifth grade math, because I can't!
*Must be able and willing to participate in water gun fights
*Must not have a problem with being thrown in the pool by my crazy friends
*Must not be a Spy!
*Must not mind me sending you for batteries everyother day!
Pay based on experience!

Life in Mayberry

* Dad is doing better, he's home from the hospital
* Summer has been too much fun
* T's heart is broken and NO--I didn't break it!
* I'm preparing for my High School reunion--fun shtuff for sure
* There is too many late nights by the pool
* My future is looking brighter
* I'm finding that I like athletic men
* My volleyball team is the best
* I work too much
* Sex is great, when you're having it
* I'll probably be in Cali soon
* Everyone is fantastic


Nothing new going on...

Happy 4th!

This could easily be one of my favorite holidays! I've had a great couple of days with my friends and my family. I even hurt myself playing Volleyball. My team consisted of Trevor, Michelle, Scott, Bobby & Chandler. I was captain of our team and I decided on the name of the Glam Squad. The boys were drunk so they agreed with the name. Becca's team consisted of Haven, Kellie, Cameron, Anthony, and Isaiah. They were team Top Gun. Needless to say, Team Glam Squad won the many matches :) I've been having soooooooo many BBQ's, Pool parties, and late night drunk fests. I feel as if I'm at Uva again!!! A couple of my friends are in town. Old and new and I'm preparing to embark on a fantastic vacation. Honestly, I can't wait to get away. I have a horrible fear of flying these days, but I'm sure it's nothing that some valium and the red carpet club can't fix! My plan is to get wasted before boarding. I have to get a hold of this fear though. My doctor said that the more I fly, the easier it will become. St. Thomas here we come!!!
I've learned that a lot of my friends are unhappy with me. I decided to forget all the drama and live my life. I'm far from perfect. I aim to please everyone, but at times I fail miserably. My 10 year High School reunion is coming up soon. I'm training for the Olympics :) I've narrowed my dates down to three possibilities. I can't wait to see who I end up going with. All three guys have expressed interest :) We shall see :) In other news, Dad has been doing well. Dr Drew is now settled in Houston and we're still really good friends. Sooooooo this past week has been fantastic. I can not wait until I'm soaking up the sun and working on my tan and getting wasted on the beach :) HAPPY 4TH of JULY !!!!

I guess I should start packing!

American Cities That Best Fit You::

65% New York City

65% San Francisco

60% Boston

60% Washington, DC

55% Chicago

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

Rainy Night in VA

"It was a rainy night when he came into sight. Standing by the door with no umbrella, no coat. I offered him a towel. He accepted with a smile. So we talked for a while. I didn't ask him his name".

The man that I'm talking about is Jesse. He's an Engineer. He's shy and sexy as all hell. I came home from starbucks lastnight and he was standing by the living room door. His clothes were drenched from the down pour. He and my brother were outside catching bikini tops and towels that were blowing in the wind and his clothes were soaked. There was a power outtages everywhere. I gave him a towel to dry off with and convinced him to stay for a while. We talked over coffee all night. He's traveled everywhere. Loves his job. He's a mama's boy. Very smart. He left me wanting more. And everyone knows that Amaya gets what she wants :) We made out like seventh graders. His hair turned me on so much. He's hot. Tonight it's dinner and drinks. Moving pretty fast? Who gives a shit?! He's incrediably sexy. Mmmmmmmmmm.

Update

My daddy always comes through on his promises! Just as a good father would :) We discussed it and a pool would be of great value to me and my family. It's been a long road, but my pool is nearly 95% complete. The concrete passed it's inspection, the diving board will be added tommorrow and the new deck/fence contractors have started working. The deck was ruined in my neighbors fire if you recall. My fence will be completed by Sunday. Here are just a few pictures Dad snapped today. Can you tell that I'm elated?! I had second thoughts about not getting my Kidney shaped pool, but what am I thinking? This is awesome!!!

The first steps....


Near completion...


My Grecian T!

F U

* For the record I will NOT be sensoring myself on here for fear of hurting people's feelings. My advice to you if you don't like it, stop reading it.

* I will not sugar coat anything on MY blog. It is what it is.

* Please don't call my cell in an alleged drunken stupor to try and discuss my blog! And don't try to fix things by blaming it on the booze!

* Only I have the right to be catty & petty!

Everyday

....Is father's day around here!

I had a lot of fun with dad. He's the best! I never take for granted any time with my father. Today was just extra special. My entire family was here and we had a wonderful meal with cosmopolitan sorbet!!! All thanks to Mom :)

Daddy, you're the best! I love you :)


Love,

One of your three favorite daughters,

Amaya

I'm not ready to make nice

I had a wonderful time at the beach. Although someone had an IV of stoli & cran and vodka until the early morning hours. I had a wonderful time, Becca had a nice birthday but overall the scene is ghetto. The scene is 18 year old girls with black girl Syndrome! I don't have an ass. I didn't fit in. The dresscode was "Sleaze". The guys are early 20's navy boys who try to 'spoil you with the riches'. Their $1000 a month paycheck is like ten thousand to them. Again, these guys have never had real jobs at their young age so a grand is a lot to them.

Victor said something to me yesterday...And I've been thinking about it ever since. Does money really matter? I always say it does not. I guess I'm fooling myself. I'm 27 now. I haven't dated a broke bitch in over 3 years. I wouldn't want a guy now that couldn't pay his own bills, I wouldn't want a guy that couldn't afford dinner and drinks and a nice vacation. So would I want to date a poor boy, the answer is negative, ghostrider!

Steve for instance is a well known NOVA millionaire. He's an Enterpernuaer. He's made a lot of money all on his own. He's even been bankrupt. Grant comes from NOVA where his father made lots of money and Grant is following in his footsteps. As for me, I'm independantly wealthy. JUST KIDDING. My mom says I come from 'OLD money'.

The bottomline is this...I don't care how you get your money, if you're taking me out, enjoying my company you best be able to afford me.

In other news...Blake from Chicago, (yes, PYSCHO BLAKE) and I have been talking quite a bit lately. He's coming down for 4th of July. I'm having a weeklong party at my house and then we're heading to St. Martin. He called me out of nowhere on Sunday am while I was at the beach and we've been talking nonstop. We haven't talked about the past because it's all said and done and it can't be changed. I'm a very forgiving person. My doctor wants me to be careful. We're just going to hang out. Nothing else. The sex was great. When I think about it, my toes curl instantly!!!

Do I feel bad about Grant? I do. He and I never really took off. Grant is the kind of guy who is so passionately sweet when he's with you. When he's not, he's not trustworthy. I'm not the only person that thinks like this. It has been brought to my attention by several others. . He still has contact with his ex from Bangladesh. Summer is here and I can't keep putting off having a good time for the sake of Grant's feelings. He doesn't take me into account when he's getting blow jobs from random hoochies in Atlantic city. Perhaps you're thinking I'm petty when actually it's just time for me to move on!!!

Adil and I are having lunch today. I miss him. Can't wait to see him!

All is fair in love & war.

Summer is here!

It's been nearly 100 degrees all week and I love it!!! My pool is near completion. It should be ready by June 7th. The steps are in and I'm having water put in it to stabilize the walls of the pool. I can't wait!!!

Everyone knows by now about the fire at my neighbor's house that caught my deck on fire and did a lot of smoke damage to my house on sunday. The dreaded Insurance company is coming again on Friday to discuss options...Funstuff.

I've decided that I'm going on vacation once a month...even if its just a weekend getaway. My summer will lots of fun ;)

More later.

Well behaved women rarely make history!

Yesterday was a good sign of what my summer is going to look like. Trish, Becca, Haven, Faith, Kellie, Brandi, Shelli & I went to the golf course and played a round. We got drunk off of nasty Rolling Rock beer and White Zinfandel. Shelli puked on the 14th! The sun and the beer do not mix!!! Haven was so wasted she crashed her cart into Faith's, leaving Faith with whiplash!!! Shelli is a wild child. She has to take AA classes so being the good friends that we all are we went with her to her meeting while we were all wasted. It was too much fun. One lady showed up without shoes on!!! I swear it was the craziest place I've been to. The lady without shoes works as a cashier in a Liquor Store, but no worries--she's been sober since Saturday!!! One lady mid 70's was there. She said that she has had many addictions from booze to drugs to sex. Well now she is addicted to the internet! She said that her family has to come over to her house to get her out of the house to pay the bills. She said that she spends as much time on there as possible. She said that she just can not wait to get home and get into a chat room!!! We all basically pissed our pants. We couldn't believe it. She was my grandmothers age. She was nuts. There was a hot attorney there though. He was there because he has had 3 dui's. They asked Shelli to introduce herself but she didn't want to. They asked us why were all there. We told the leader we were there for support!!! Rick called while we were in the meeting, but he didn't notice a thing. We went back to the course and went swimming but the water was too cold. We swam in our panties and bras. Trish & Faith were in true form; They chose to swim in the nude. After all of that we all crashed at my house and watched American Idol. It was a bit blah for my taste. Taylor should win--everyone knows I'm a fan, Although he should have picked better songs. Katharine never impresses me. She's an okay singer but a poor entertainer.

Tonight we're all heading over to Faith's to watch the Finale of American Idol and get drunk off of cheap wine!!!

My Pool

The pool is coming along rather quickly. The lead guy that is building it is so hot! I wish mom took a picture of him. I love it when he takes his shirt off...mmmmmm he has the most amazing stomach....tan skin, seablue eyes and hot bod!

Little Miss Kennedy & Little Miss Emily

A few days ago I took Kennedy to my Grandmother's and she found my old swing that we have always had in our old Oak tree and Kennedy fell in love :)




Then I took Em to get a manicure while I got a pedi. She then insisted that she needed a hair cut. She was exhausted after a day of shopping and pampering!




This was sent to me by Lisa. Kennedy was recently in the hospital because she was sick and just like all best friends, Emily was by Kennedy's side! It's not the most flattering picture of Kennedy's daddy's big arm or Kennedy as a sick little girl. The love that these to girls have for each other is unique and genuine.

Dear Me

I never thought I'd miss you - big frizzy hair, acne, bangs that were big and curled. You were awkward, your nose too small, your ears too big for your head. Your only friends were other cheerleaders, your clothes were always the best of the best. You were happy go lucky. You read. You ate nachos. You played Nintendo. You lived day by day on the inevitability that someday you'd be loved. You longed for love in a way that you can only long for something you've never experienced -- breathlessly, idealistically, hopefully. The image in the mirror never reflected how you felt. You knew you were beautiful, you just didn't know how to be.

I never thought I'd miss you, first mentor. "I love reading what you write," said Mrs. Johnson, my sixth grade English teacher. "You and Matt should discuss your writings, you're both quite talented." I remember leering at the chubby dark-haired boy who was always in my way at the lockers. We were her pets until we graduated to the seventh grade. Matt and I did however, discuss our writings. "Are you and Matt married yet?" she asked me when she saw me at a restaurant last summer. "No," I giggled. "No, we are not."

I never thought I'd miss you, first love, crash and burn. Fourteen, heart racing, I thought I might hit you that day in the computer lab. Were there tears in your eyes? I don't remember. First kiss, not what I expected. No fireworks, no bells...being with me changed you...after I'd changed to be with you. Goodbye frizzy hair, chubby legs. Flatirons, sparkling peach flavored water, fat-free butter substitute and apricots, there was nothing I wouldn't do for you. Brown eyes, you burned me. I'd never met anyone like you. I still haven't.

I never thought I'd miss you, first job, in the beautiful Shenandoah National Park while spending the summers with my grandparents. The hot guests from as far away as the Netherlands made me realize I was a woman. On slow days, my friends would visit, we'd hang out in the lobby and eat at the restaurant and flirt with the bartenders.. When a boy made me cry, Wes and Chris who were the chefs, sat with me all day as we plotted revenge between fruit salads and cheeseburgers.

I never thought I'd miss you, first boyfriend, big arms blue eyes, love for me pouring out of you like raindrops. Your smell, like home, curled up next to you, we watched "Clueless." I ran my hand, heavy beneath the weight of your class ring, down your stomach, over the t-shirt with the WWF logo that I thought was silly. "I'm a redneck," you said. Chimichangas at TGIFridays, that was my favorite place to go. Your hand up my skirt during a Natalie Portman movie, sliding down my dress after my induction into the National Honor Society, On my sixteenth birthday, you covered me with chocolate syrup.

I never thought I'd miss you, best friend, you were my girl. You were fragile and beautiful. You slept with a teddy bear beneath bed, you were afraid of what your father would do. You had to meet with social workers at school. You spent night upon night at my house, getting ready for dances, borrowing clothes, listening to music, talking until dawn. I'd never had a real girlfriend. I took you everywhere I went. You looked up to me. But you probably never knew that I needed you just as much. When you left, I hated you. You're still a sore spot.

I never thought I'd miss you, first temptation, your bleach blond hair blowing in the breeze as we held hands at Kings Dominion. I wore a light cotton shirt, white and blue with an open back. You slid your hand up the back and walked with me like I was yours. I thought it might be nice. "Oh my God. It's like a boner," I said. "So that would make the ride...a giant handjob?" We were exhilerated by the ride that shot you up into the air against a giant pole at a ridiculous speed, and sent you immediately crashing down, making your stomach flip. That night we watched fireworks from the Eiffel tower.. You kissed me. I liked you.

I never thought I'd miss you, CHOICES, working as a Shelter Advisor at the home for abused women and children so I could buy Silver and Tommy Hilfiger jeans, changed me without my knowing it. Every woman has a story. When Tonya killed herself on my watch I went crazy too. When we found her body I was hysterical. "I'll take care of things. Take all the time you need." Robin said. I never went back.

I never thought I'd miss you, innocence, first time, carefully planned. "Let's try a practice one, first," I said. We'd been dating for nine months. When we were ready, banana flavored condom, 10 minutes of mild discomfort. "That wasn't such a big deal!" I said, relieved. We shared a frozen pizza. That night, Jeremy cried while he thought I was sleeping. "What's wrong?" "I took your childhood," he said.

I never thought I'd miss you, highschool graduation, I was sad. We all cried. I wrote each girl in my class a nice note, even though I didn't particularly like everyone. But I was nice that way. Brandy read her speech.I watched the slideshow. When Matt's picture flashed across the screen, I hid my eyes beneath my sunglasses to conceal my weakness, he'd left for the airforce 5 months earlier and my heart was all but broken. When I got home, I had to face my family and everyone was there. Even Michael who I broke up with because he had cancer and I was shallow.

I never thought I'd miss you, first revelation. He was never an old friend, but it always felt like he was. Visiting me in my dorm my freshman year at UVa, the sunlight poured in through the tall window as we sat talking on my floor. That day, he cried about everything he'd never been able to say. I held him for an hour without muttering a word. It felt nice to be somebody's rock for once. I wiped a tear from his cheek and knew we'd always be together.

I never thought I'd miss you, first roommate, smoking marlboro menthol lights on the stoop of our first apartment. You were wilder than me, and convinced me to donn a white t-shirt and dance braless in the rain. On Mondays, we'd start drinking as soon as classes were over. Perched on our stoop with bottles of Miller Light, people would walk by and ask us, "Why Monday?" We'd answer, "We like to start the week off right." You liked to have loud sex. It always pissed me off when I wasn't getting any.

I never thought I'd miss you, first heartbreak, world crashing down. You betrayed me. Hurt me. How can I still bear to look at you? I developed my serious drug habit because of you. Crying alone on the balcony of the apartment I shared with Erin, Lisa and Adam, I would chug Tequila and contemplate jumping. My friend Brandi put her arms around me and told me it was fine, I was strong. I'd get by. Time passed and I amazed myself with my own healing power. She was right. I picked myself up. I survived.

I never thought I'd miss you, Brent, my brother who was killed. You left so quickly. You didn't suffer. You protected me from boys. You allowed me to ride to school with you and your friends. You loved football, Better than Ezra and pretty girls. It pissed me off that you were taken. I'm still pissed. I wonder what you'd be doing today? Would you have became the military man just like dad? Would you have the house and the picket fence?

I never thought I'd miss you, high hopes, smart girl, quirky girl, nice girl. Where are you? Are you still me? Are these memories mine? Straight hair, clear skin, bright teeth, curves?. Who are you? You buy your clothes at Gap sometimes, you're normal. You work out daily. You only read your celeberity rags. You eat salads. You play with fate. You live day to day on the inevitability that you'll probably never be loved. You long for love in the way that you can only long for something you've experienced the bitter consequences of -- carefully, cautiously, fearfully. The image in the mirror doesn't reflect how you feel. You know you're beautiful. You just don't remember how to be you.